Tuesday, February 25
It’s about 11 in the morning right now, and I’ve been at work for about an hour and a half. I do have some internship work to get done today, but I’m here until 4pm and I can spare a bit of time to write.
I’ve been in a great place lately, socially, emotionally, and physically. I feel like my relationships with my friends are really strong and healthy, and I’m taking good care of my body. I’m still sleeping decently as well, especially now that I usually wake up next to someone I love (oops, cat’s out of the bag, I have a boyfriend now).
So anyway, things in my life are going very well. The weather has been fantastic too, so I’ve been spending more time outside, going for walks and doing my homework in the grass. I’m especially looking forward to spring break in a couple of weeks, and then my 21st birthday on April 12, and then…I graduate in May?? Jesus, it’s sneaking up on me. Time goes by too quickly!
Anyway, I don’t have much else to report, besides the fact that I’m still making very little (hardly any) money, and I need to be able to afford the train, food, and basic toiletries every week. It’s going to be such a wonderful change of pace to have an actual salary by this fall. Sigh.
Wednesday, February 26
Hi everyone, I hope you’re all having a great week! I’m feeling pretty good at the moment, albeit groggy. I’m usually not a big fan of naps, but today I was exhausted after my three powerpoint presentations and I decided to get a little bit of shut-eye. I don’t know what I thought would happen, but I woke up sweaty and disoriented after some stressful dreams. Needless to say, it kind of threw me off, so I’m trying to re-center myself by being social and getting work done in the library. Even though I am definitely introverted, I still enjoy hanging out and doing homework surrounded by the static company of people.
I have to say, I’m really proud of the work I did today! Even though I typically get pretty bad anxiety surrounding presentations and public speaking, I felt completely calm and grounded today. I didn’t even need to take an Ativan, which I originally assumed I would. Somehow, I managed to stay calm and cool throughout all my presentations, and I’m definitely giving myself a pat on the back for that. It feels great to make progress in a positive direction.
I’m looking forward to tomorrow; Buck and I have both been a bit busy lately, and we miss each other. He’s been spending a lot of nights next to me, and it feels so lovely to wake up next to him, with bits of hair falling in his face and the sunlight on his back. It fills me with gratitude to know he’s there, and I feel like he came into my life at the perfect time. Some people say their partners complete them, but for me, I already felt whole and complete when I met Buck; he’s just a beautiful addition to everything.
(I don’t think he’s reading this, but if he is: Hi B, I love you!)
Friday, February 28
Hi all, hope you’re doing great! I’ve had a pretty normal day, if not a bit frazzled. I normally never miss classes because I hate falling behind, but today I decided to skip my 8am class (and subsequently received a passive aggressive email from my professor).
Anyway, I’m currently hanging out with one of my best friends and getting some homework done. I’ve been feeling much more social this semester than I was last year, and I’m really happy that I’ve been able to form some lasting friendships. I used to have a really hard time making friends, so I definitely feel like my life has changed in that department.
I’m also going to drop off some clothes at a thrift store so I can make some extra cash, as my internship is unpaid and the train fares do pile up after a while. If you guys have any other tips for how to make extra cash, let me know in the comments!