August has been a pretty chill month for me. I’ve been working a lot, but I’ve also had a lot of down time (those of you who read my weekly newsletter know why.) I’ve been listening to a lot of new music and trying to pick up new relaxing hobbies, such as baking bread and making scrapbooks. Read on to find out what else I’m loving in August!

Lifestyle | CBD 

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I’ve enjoyed using CBD oil for a couple of years now, but I was recently visited by a friend who introduced me to a new way to consume it: smoking it! Yes, CBD blunts are a thing. They look (and smell) just like weed, but obviously, smoking it won’t make you high. I smoked a little bit of it (it’s legal here in Massachusetts) and I really liked the relaxing effect it had on me. It made me really drowsy as well, so I slept very well that night. I don’t foresee or plan on becoming dependent on it, but I would like to explore purchasing it again in the future from my local dispensary. 

Music | Ashnikko

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Funnily enough, the same friend who brought me CBD also got me into Ashnikko’s music. I had known her recent single “Cry” for a few weeks and was totally bopping out to it, but over the last few weeks I’ve gotten immersed in even more of her music. She reminds me a lot of Grimes, Doja Cat, and Charli XCX rolled into one awesome human. Her songs are empowering, strong, catchy, and the music videos are a treat as well! She also clearly has a funny and adorable personality, as I’ve learned from her YouTube videos. Right now, I have the song “Daisy” on repeat. 

Music | folklore by Taylor Swift

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I have to say, I was NOT a huge Taylor Swift fan before Lover came out. I never actually had anything against her, but her country-pop music just never appealed to me. However, Lover really opened my eyes up to her softer music, and of course, folklore just knocked me out of the park. It’s just such a perfect soundtrack for fall, and all of the songs are so poetic, relatable, and perfectly stripped back. I could never pick a favorite song off the album, but I really love “august” and “epiphany.” I’ve been listening to this album while I bake, journal, scrapbook, and blog, and it puts me in such a great mood for the day.

Lifestyle | Burnt-Orange Everything

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2020 is the year of burnt orange everything, prove me wrong. Lately I’ve been wearing so many burnt-orange skirts, beanies, eyeshadow colors, and even lipsticks. I just think it’s such a universally flattering color, and it’s a perfect transition shade into the cooler months. I’m really looking forward to wearing my burnt-orange hat with my burnt-orange purse while I listen to folklore and bake this fall. The next step is to get some burnt-orange fall decor, like pumpkins and throw blankets. 

Lifestyle | Baking Bread!!

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I’ve been wanting to get into baking for a while, and there’s no better time than right now, right? It’s actually a lot easier than I thought it would be, and even though it does take a while to make, most of that time is just to let it sit and do nothing. The bread that I just made is a VERY basic recipe (water, bread flour, salt, and instant yeast,) but I jazzed it up a bit with some rosemary and garlic chunks. I’m going to be posting a more in-depth bread-making article later down the line, so keep your eyes out for that! Making bread is so relaxing and satisfying. 

Fashion | Hoops

I’ve always really liked hoops, but I shied away from wearing them until now because I was aware that wearing hoops could be considered cultural appropriation to the lantinx community. With that being said, I believe women (or men) can wear hoops as a form of cultural appreciation  as well- you just have to understand the history and background behind the culture you are borrowing from, and realize that your choice to do so is a privilege (because you can take your hoops off at the end of the day, whereas a marginalised community cannot just “take off” their identity.). I would never want to come across as someone who is trying to wear hoops for “Latin flavor;” I just like the way they look and I try to be as mindful and educated as I can about why hoop earrings symbolize strength and resilience in the latinx community. 

I hope you guys enjoyed this month’s favorites! I’m glad to be back on track with blogging; my new work hours sort of threw me for a loop, but I’m definitely starting to adjust now and find new time for writing.

Tuesday, August 18

It’s now day two of my two-week self-isolation from work, and I have to say, I’m feeling a lot better than I was yesterday. Like I said, I feel totally fine and healthy, and I’m going to get tested for COVID on Thursday or Friday anyway to give myself some piece of mind. I’m fully expecting a negative result, so once that (hopefully) comes through, I’m going to feel safe enough to go to the grocery store and such. Until then, however, it’s just going to be sleeping in and hanging out at home!

Although I do plan on sleeping in a little bit later than usual, I’m still going to set a goal to get up by 8:30 every day. I want to maintain some sense of normalcy and productivity while I’m home, and getting up at a decent time helps to keep my mood high. I’d like to get back into doing workouts since I literally have nothing else to do, and I should be able to catch up on blogging as well. Really, the most important thing for me this week is to just practice self care and look at the positives. I’m safe, healthy, and I have a great support system. Might as well look at it as a two-week paid vacation. 

Saturday, August 22

Hi everybody! How are you guys doing? Hopefully staying safe and happy during these times we are sharing together. Even though it feels like the end is nowhere in sight, I do think it’s important to remind ourselves that good things are still happening. For example, COVID cases in the US are actually steadily declining now, which is a great indication that our collective efforts may be working! And while I don’t think life is going to go back to normal any time soon, maybe, maybe we can start looking forward to things again. Maybe I’ll be able to have a semi-normal Thanksgiving or a semi-normal Christmas with my family and Nathaniel’s family. Maybe next year I’ll finally be able to celebrate my graduation from college. Who knows what will happen?

My little week of self-isolation is still going fine; I’ve been playing a LOT of the Sims 4 and working on my Etsy shop. Today I planned my grocery list for the week and decided on a recipe I’d like to make for dinner: one pot pasta with tomato & mascarpone sauce. What I’ve been doing lately is making a large, family-sized meal at the beginning of the week, usually on a Monday, and then slowing going through it for the rest of the week as leftovers. Last week I had burritos, and this week I’m going to try my hand at this recipe. I’d also like to bake a loaf of bread; getting into baking bread has been on my list of hobbies I’d like to explore in 2020. No better time to do it than now!

So nothing too exciting is going on, just gaming and sleeping and catching up on hobbies. Today I had some fun doing ∼fall crafts∼, such as making a pretty mason jar filled with fall-themed date ideas for me and Nathaniel. I also made a ∼fall scrapbook∼, so that Nathaniel and I can then document our ∼fall dates.∼ So cheesy, I know. 

I’m feeling really good emotionally, and I didn’t have a PMDD episode this month, which is amazing! I wonder if it has to do with skipping my placebo pills, as my doctor recommended I do to combat PMDD. Let’s hope that keeps up on a positive note.

In other good news, Nathaniel is going back to school in a couple of weeks for his last stretch of school, and since our school is so close to my apartment, he’ll be able to come see me all the time! I probably won’t be able to go out there to his dorm as much, seeing how schools are going to be very strict with social distancing and having guests. Nonetheless, I’m really looking forward to hosting him here and getting to see him more often. God, I can’t wait to marry that man and have babies someday. He really is my rock.

That’s it for now! Enjoy the week ahead, everybody!

I give myself a budget of about $40 a month to use as disposable income, and so far, about 99% of it has been going to Marshalls and TJ Maxx. I mean, come on. Fall candles and sweaters with outstanding prices? DisCOUNT me in.

The other day, I went to TJ Maxx with the intention of just browsing, and instead I left with five things. So it goes.

Borrego Springs T-Shirt

I actually usually don’t buy a lot of clothes at department stores, because I’ve gotten into the habit of thrifting almost everything. However, I fell in love with everything about this t-shirt when I saw it. It reminds me of the Grateful Dead for some reason, with its Tex-Mex imagery, so that was already enough to make me fall in love with it. I also really like the colors- green and yellow happen to be a couple of my favorite colors. I am fully anticipating Nathaniel robbing this from my closet- I’ll be sure to keep you updated.

Heritage Pumpkin Candle

You KNOW I couldn’t step into a TJ Maxx in late August without buying a fall candle. You know that’s out of my control. I’ve been looking for a new candle anyway, and this one claims to have a whopping 56 hours of burn time! I’m a huge fan of anything apple or pumpkin scented, and this candle smells like a perfect fall day in New England. It reminds me a lot of the autumns I used to spend back in my hometown, going for walks and picking pumpkins at the local farm. Does anybody else like to buy fall candles year-round, or is this just a me thing? Let me know in the comments.

Pink Agenda

I love anything and everything stationary, particularly beautiful planners and agendas that come with lots of organizational bonuses and note pages. I had actually seen this agenda once before at TJ Maxx but managed to restrain myself from purchasing it the first time. This time, however, I just said F it and went ahead and bought it, feeding into my never-ending collection of journals and notebooks. I’ve actually really needed an agenda since starting a new job and making medical appointments again, so at least this was a somewhat practical purchase.

Insulated Water Bottle

Another semi-reasonable purchase I made at TJ Maxx was this lovely, insulated water bottle. I found it in the clearance department for $4.50, and I really love the neutral beige color, so this purchase was a no brainer. If you ever need a new water bottle or travel mug, TJ Maxx or Marshalls is definitely the place to go. As you can see from my purchase, you can find tons of great, high-quality bottles for under 5 bucks! I’m looking forward to customizing this water bottle with stickers as time goes on. 

“I Love Autumn” Sign

Last but not least, and clearly the biggest impulse buy, I picked up this “I Love Autumn” sign in the queue line. Yes, I now effectively have a shrine to fall in my bedroom, and I have no regrets. I haven’t really done much decorating since I moved, so I’m thinking of this as the first step towards customizing my space and making it my own. 

Anyway, those are the things I picked up at TJ Maxx recently! Clearly didn’t get anything essential, but hey, I get that shopping bug from time to time. What have you guys been up to in preparation for fall? Let me know down below. 

Monday, August 17

Look at them! Adorable. 10/10

This past week has been a bit of a whirlwind, but predominantly good! I worked all last week, as I normally do, but this past weekend, I was able to see one of my good friends for the first time in about a year! We met last year at a meetup in New York, and since we’ve stayed very close since, we decided to plan a one-year friendversary weekend together. Obviously it is a calculated risk to take in the pandemic, but we have both been wearing our masks and socially distancing responsibly, and since it was just going to be the two of us and not a giant crowd of people, we felt that it was a safe situation. They arrived Friday evening and left Sunday evening, and altogether, it was a fantastic 48 hours together. We did a lot of hanging out and chatting, as expected, but we also drove around the city and visited some of my favorite spots, such as The Garment District and Grasshopper. One of my favorite moments was sitting on my patio on Saturday night, drinking hard cider and just vibing out together. I’ve definitely been feeling lonely and isolated these past few months, and my circle of who I can really talk to in person is limited, so I really appreciated having those special moments with my best friend. MJ, you are amazing, and thank you for bringing me so many lovely, giant bagels from New York! They are delicious and they’ve been feeding me for days.

Today was my first day at work for the week, and as you are about to learn, it did not go as planned. One of our co-workers tested positive for COVID-19, so we had to immediately shut down the store and our manager has sent us home to self-isolate for 14 days since we were exposed to this employee. It’s obviously a surreal thing to hear, and closing down the store and leaving at 10 in the morning was really bizarre, but it’s actually not as scary or stressful for me as you may think. Don’t get me wrong, it’s very scary and it puts a lot of things into perspective for me, but I’m also aware that I am a fortunate human being and things could be a lot worse. For example, I am still going to be paid for the next two weeks, even though I am not working. I am also surrounded by a wonderful support system who have offered me so much love, including lovely friends who have offered to buy me groceries and run errands for me. I also feel absolutely fine and have no symptoms, so even though I do intend on self-isolating as I am supposed to, I definitely do not think I am infected. However, just to be safe, I have a test scheduled for Thursday, just to give myself some piece of mind. So even though things are strange right now, I just have to look at the positives! I’m basically receiving a paid two-week vacation, I don’t have to wake up at 5 in the morning, and I can catch up on other things I really need to get done. For example, while setting up my testing appointment today, I also went ahead and got myself a PCP with the clinic I called. I’ve needed to set that up for months now, so I’m glad I was able to knock out two birds with one stone. They also gave me some information about how to sign up for a therapist and have virtual visits through their services, and I really appreciated that as well. So things are actually going well, and I’m in a great state of mind. Nathaniel and I’s six-month anniversary is coming up on Friday, and although I sadly won’t be able to see him, I do have some packages coming for him in the mail. Hopefully I’ll be able to see him by the end of the month; I miss him greatly and I can’t wait until the day when we can wake up next to each other and not have to say goodbye anymore. Have a safe week, everyone!

Sunday, August 9

Hi everyone! Hope you had a really great week and you’re looking forward to the days to come. My week has been much better than the one before, and I really feel like I am slowly healing from the pain and stress I was going through. I didn’t have anywhere to be this weekend, so I took advantage of that and caught up on a lot of sleep and “me time.” I remember this past Thursday night I essentially slept from 6pm to 7am, and that was a huge wake-up call for me that last week took a huge toll on me. I was exhausted, so hopefully that will provide some insight into why I was falling behind on everything else.

Today my main goal was to get my new phone set up, which my mom very generously sent to me in the mail (thanks, mom!), and I’m currently in the process of backing up my data onto the iCloud. It’s apparently going to take 4-5 hours, according to my phone, but at least it’s happening! I’m also passing the time by watching Leah Remini: Scientology and The Aftermath, which is my current favorite show to binge-watch. I’ve also been really enjoying The Last Dance, which is a documentary series about Michael Jordan and several other basketball stars who played for the Bulls. No, I would have never picked this documentary to watch on my own, but Nathaniel put it on when I went to visit him, and I just got suckered into it. I honestly feel like I could get invested in any subject if the documentary was interesting enough- does anyone else feel that way?

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As for other ways I’m trying to heal from my depressive episode, I’ve been trying to do a lot more journaling and raw, unfiltered writing in my notebooks to feel more in-touch with myself and my feelings. It’s been so, so helpful, and it’s really helped me to appreciate myself more and understand how my past traumas have intertwined with my current stresses. If you’re also going through similar stress and anxiety, I would highly recommend finding a list of depression-specific prompts and answering one per day. I also made a bubble/flow chart of everything that’s on my mind lately, and discovered through making arrows that several of them were interconnected. That has been really helpful for me to break my stress into smaller pieces and tackle the smaller issues first, working my way into the bigger issues.

So basically, the sparknotes of what I’m trying to say is that I’m really proud of how I’m doing and the healthy coping mechanisms I am taking to better myself. Nathaniel has also been absolutely wonderful throughout this time, remaining patient and loving even in the moments that I’m hard on myself. 

I am working tomorrow through Thursday, per usual, and then my good friend MJ is coming to visit me from New York. Don’t worry, we are fully intending on keeping ourselves safe and socially distancing. I’m really excited to see them, because the last time I saw them was last August on the day we met. So this weekend is going to be our one-year friendversary, and I’m so overjoyed to be reunited with such an important friend in my life.

Anway, I’m going to try pre-scheduling all my content for this week so that I don’t have to worry about it while I’m working. I do like blogging and writing online, but sometimes, I just don’t have the energy to get it done! So here’s to hoping this week goes smoothly and painlessly, so that I can find that little bit of “me time” to get it done. 

Monday, July 27

I’ve always striven to be really transparent about how I’m doing, so I’m not gonna lie, the past couple of days have been tough. It would make a lot of sense if I was entering some sort of PMDD-related episode, but I’m also trying to avoid getting into the habit of blaming every bad mood on my period. I felt fine for most of the day yesterday, but around the evening is when I began to struggle with feeling irritable, agitated, angry, depressed, anxious, paranoid, fatigued, and crying inconsolably…so, sounds like some pretty severe PMDD to me! Poor Nathaniel, he’s such a saint staying on the phone with me and being kind and encouraging when I’m really struggling and crying and putting myself down. I know it hurts him to see me go through hard times, especially since he can’t be here in person, but I really appreciate how lovely and understanding he is. He stayed on the line with me for over an hour while my scream-crying slowly evolved to silent crying, which then evolved to sniffling, which then evolved to snoring. Someone give this man an award ASAP. 

I didn’t get a ton of sleep last night, as you could have probably assumed. I fell asleep around midnight and had to be up at 4am for work. I wasn’t crying or feeling angry like I had been the night before, but I still felt sort of cloudy and fatigued, like my brain was still swimming in tears inside of my head. And then at work, even though my trainer and my manager said I did a great job, I did not feel on my A-game. I was forgetful, I was slow, and I was really blanking on how to do basic things I had learned the week before. I managed to hold it together without bursting into tears, but there were a few moments where I thought, “Am I good enough to do this? Am I too stupid to learn? Should I quit so I stop wasting everyone’s time?”

The first thing I did when I got home was conk out for about two and a half hours (a bit longer than I wanted to sleep, admittedly,) and now it’s after 4pm and eating a late lunch while I chug water. I definitely feel like my head has cleared up a lot, and I promised Nathaniel I wouldn’t be “a weepy mess” on the phone tonight. I feel like I can hold myself together again. However, I am really stressed about my work performance and I wish I was learning things faster. I know if I had all the time in the world to practice, or a way to keep learning everything at home, I would be fine. But it’s because all my practice comes from a fast-paced, stressful environment, I feel easily flustered and I forget what I’m doing. That being said, I remembered something today while I was making my lunch that I haven’t actually had a discussion with my work: I have learning disabilities which affect my memory and my processing skills, and the reality is, my brain is probably working twice as hard as it should be to get by. (By the way, I haven’t really told any of the jobs I applied to because I was afraid I wouldn’t get hired for being neuroatypical.) Reminding myself of that made me feel a bit better about myself and my progress. Like, no, I’m not a wimp or a moron or a “bad person” for feeling the way I feel. I am a person who is honestly just trying her best to hold everything together, and even though I’m also a weepy, tired mess, I think I’m doing pretty okay. 

So yeah, that’s been my Monday. Nathaniel’s work schedule is a bit tough this week but I really, really hope I can see him because it’s been more than two weeks and the thing I need more than anything else in the world right now is a hug. I’m really hoping the rest of the week is not as dramatic and emotional as these past few days, so I’ll do my best to take care of myself. I am also going to try to practice everything I need to know at Starbucks as well as I can at home without having any equipment, aka I’m going to rely on memory to write out tasks. Thank you all so much for reading today and I’ll be sure to update you on how the rest of my week goes. 


Monday, August 3

Hey everybody! Hope you’re all having a great Monday. I’ve been really behind on posting here on my blog, but honestly, I didn’t have time to sit down in front of my computer at all this week! I really don’t like getting behind on my goals, so today and tomorrow are going to be all about playing catch-up.

The past week was rough with PMDD, but things are starting to look up a bit now that my emotions are getting back on track. I spent most of last week feeling irritated and sad, and to be totally honest, the weekend didn’t make me feel much better. But like I said, things are on the right track now and I’m trying to stay as positive as possible. I’ve also been feeling like I can’t tell the people I love how I feel and what I’m going through, because it seems like everyone else is going through their own mess right now and I don’t want to stress anyone out even further with my problems. So that’s been really frustrating, but I definitely think having a therapist and paying someone to listen to my problems will help. I’ve been trying to find one via Psychology Today, but so far nobody has returned my emails. I’ll be sure to let you guys know how the rest of my week goes and if skipping my sugar pill week does any good for my PMDD down the line! Sorry I was a bit of a downer and unproductive this week, I’m going to try to keep my mind busier and more positive in the next few days.

 

I look forward to writing these Monthly Favorite articles every month, and I love to read other bloggers’ favorite things as well! It’s a great way to find some new hobbies, interests, and inspirations. Here’s everything I’ve been loving so far this summer. 

Lifestyle | Tie-Dying Literally Everything 

I talked about tie dye in my June Monthly Favorites, and guess what? I’m still obsessed with it. For one thing, doing your own tie-dye crafts is so easy and fun. A few weeks ago, I went totally nuts and essentially tie-dyed every white thing in my room, including two shirts and two pillowcases. I love the semi-pastel hues that they turned out, and considering I’d never actually tie-dyed before, I think the pattern came out decently as well. In regards to other tie-dye clothes I’m wearing, I also really love this dress I ordered online. Great for both sleeping and dragging myself to Starbucks in 90 degree weather for a midday coffee!

TV & Movies | 100% Hotter

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There’s nothing I love more than watching absolute trash on TV when I get home from work. The last few months, my comfort fix has been 100% Hotter, a cheesy makeunder show that you can find on Netflix. I think that transformation reality shows are an iffy concept in general, because why should someone change the way they look if it makes them happy, but this show is especially cringe and cookie-cutter. The best part is, 80% of the time, the contestants look better before their makeover rather than after. The makeup part of the makeover is usually pretty good, but the hair and the clothing styling is always SO hit or miss. Anyway, I highly recommend watching this show if you need some new entertainment. 

Fashion | Biker Shorts

If I had a larger disposable income, I just need you to know that I would buy dozens of pairs of biker shorts. I simply just love them enormously and find them so functional, comfortable, and stylish for the warmer months. Do you want to get a workout done and still feel comfortable while you run errands later, all at the same time? Buy yourself a pair of biker shorts. I currently only have one pair in black, but like I said, I would really love to expand my collection. They’re also really easy to find both online and in stores like Target, Old Navy, etc!

Entertainment | Bailey Sarian

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I was scrolling through Facebook one fine morning when a clip of Bailey Sarian appeared in my feed, and since then, I’ve just been totally hooked on her content. She makes beauty/makeup content on YouTube (thus making her a beautuber, of course,) but her spin on it is that she also talks about a true crime story while she does it. It’s a fun time, it’s interesting, and you get to learn about makeup all at the same time. I love putting on her videos and listening along while I do my own makeup; it feels like Bailey is my friend and we’re sitting down together to have gal time while we get ready. I recently found out that my mom and stepdad also watch Bailey, which I think is absolutely adorable. 

Health & Beauty | Wigs

While I’m waiting for my extremely damaged and gross-colored hair to grow out, I’ve been having a ton of fun playing around with wigs this summer! Right now I currently own two wigs, a curly ombre one and a straight black one, but I’d love to purchase a dusty pink one as well. It’s just such an easy way to switch up your look without worrying about damaging your own hair, and the possibilities for styling them are endless. The only thing I’m struggling with is learning how to keep them untangled and clean, so if you guys have any suggestions, drop them down below!

Music | Grimes

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Okay, I know Grimes is “socially problematic” and a lot of people hate her. You don’t have to remind me. But there’s just something about her that I find so endearing and refreshing. She reminds me a lot of myself, for example, with her simultaneously deep-thinking ways and cute, quirky external personality. Every time I watch a video of Grimes talking about her life and her thoughts, I think to myself, “Wow, this human is literally me.” I really love her music as well, of course, including some of the tracks off her newest album, Miss Anthropocene. In particular, my go-to song right now is “IDORU;” it’s so fresh, light, and full of sweet emotions. And no, I am not a fan of Elon Musk in any way, but I like to dissociate him from Grimes’ art and music and try to appreciate her singularly for what (and who) she is. 

Anyway, those are all my monthly favorites for July! Sorry this was a bit behind, I’m going to schedule it so that the date appears on the day it was supposed to be published. Let me know if we share any favorites this month!

Tuesday, July 21

Hi everyone! I hope you’re all having a great week, I’m doing much better today than I had been in previous days. Change makes anyone nervous, for sure, and for me, I was having a lot of trouble sleeping in the days leading up to my first day of work on Monday. The night before, I didn’t sleep at all, and then my uber canceled and I was late, but besides that, my training was great and a lot of fun! Obviously it was stressful, but it was actually more comprehensive than I expected. However, the second I stepped outside and plopped down onto the nearest bench, I just burst into tears. I was exhausted, I was stressed, and I had just received a fairly rude text message from a good friend. I probably looked a bit strange crying by myself on a bench in a shopping plaza, but I honestly really needed that cry. I got home, chugged some water, and actually managed to take a one-hour nap. And I really felt better after that, especially after I called Buck and told him about my day. Hearing his voice and him strumming the guitar actually made me calm and sleepy, too, so I was able to fall asleep last night and sleep for a FULL NIGHT! I was so overjoyed when I woke up this morning and realized I felt great. And since my shift started at 7:00 instead of 5:30, I was able to catch the first morning train instead of relying on uber. 

Work itself has been really interesting and intensive, but in the best way. It’s complex and fast-paced, like I knew it would be, but I thrive in those environments. I’ve already learned so much in a two day span, and I’m looking forward to work tomorrow! 

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Sunday, July 26

Hey guys, I’m happy to report that my sleep schedule has definitely returned to normal and I’m feeling much less stressed about work. I do have another 5:30 shift tomorrow, but my coworker is very kindly going to give me a ride so I don’t have to worry about finding an uber or walking at 4:30. I’m also going to have Nathaniel go over some drinks with me tonight, even though we’re technically not supposed to “work off the clock.” I have really high processing skills but really low memory skills, so when I am trying to learn a new routine or sequence, I need a LOT of practice!

My mood has been predominantly fine, but also a bit of a rollercoaster. Sometimes I wake up feeling bright and cheery, and other times I feel like my eyes are going to roll out of my head every time someone annoys me. I’ve been missing Nathaniel a lot lately because I haven’t seen him in more than two weeks, and that definitely affects my mood. However, we are both working really hard to plan something out this week. I know it doesn’t do any good to think/feel this way, but whenever I see pictures of him having fun and hanging out with his other friends, it makes me feel…bad? Not in a sense that I don’t want him to have friends or anything- of course I do- but I guess I just feel bad that I’m not them. When I want to see my boyfriend, we have to basically plan out an entire operation of when and where we’re going to see each other. We don’t get to just casually “hang out” whenever we want, and I sort of envy the people who do. Like I said, I know that could easily become a toxic sentiment that evoles into “Maybe if I was a little bit better, X…”, so I’m trying to talk myself out of it whenever I feel that way. I’m sure a lot of people in “long distance” relationships can relate to that burning feeling of missing someone. 

Anyway, after I publish this article I’m going to go to Starbucks to get an Iced Guava Passion Fruit drink (highly recommend,) and then I’m going to work on Tuesday’s article, get some cleaning done, and practice learning drinks. Thanks for reading and I hope you all have a fabulous week ahead of you!

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Hey guys! Sorry I was a little late with today’s article; I started work this week and things have just been crazy. Yesterday I spent most of the day just playing catch-up with chores and groceries, so today is really my first opportunity to sit down, relax, and get some writing done. I had a different article planned for today, but I decided to switch it up at the last minute and give you guys a scoop on what my average day is like. It definitely differs from day to day, but on average, this is what my usual routine pans out to be on a workday. On days off, there is really no order in which I do things.

5:00am: Because I work morning shifts, it’s not uncommon for me to wake up between 4:00am and 6:00am. On a typical day, I start at 7:00, which means I have to get up about two hours beforehand. The first hour is for getting ready, and the second hour is for commuting. I don’t spend too much time messing with my hair or makeup; I just take a quick shower, shovel down a quick (but filling) breakfast, and throw my hair up into a ponytail or a hat. And I don’t have to worry about getting a coffee, because I work at Starbucks!

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6:00am: The first lightrail of the morning gets to my stop at 6:08 or so, so that’s always the train I will take if I’m working for 7:00. Even if the train is a few minutes late or if there is a delay, I will have to really hustle (and possibly run) to compensate for it. I take the train inbound for 4 stops, switch to another line (about a ten minute walk,) ride the other train for one stop, and then walk for about 25 minutes until I get to work. It’s not as bad as it sounds, especially if it’s the early morning and it’s still cool outside. It’s leaving work and doing the commute all over again that really kills my legs, especially since I’m standing and running around all day in between! Sometimes I will opt for uber or try to get a ride, but that’s only if the weather is ridiculous.

7:00am: Like I said, most days I will get to work around this time, permitting on the shift. I get my coffee, tie on my apron, and get ready for a day of work. 

9:30am: If I am working under six hours, I will get one ten minute break around mid morning. Obviously ten minutes doesn’t give me time to do much, so I’ll usually just take a bathroom break, chug some water, and check my text messages. Then it’s back to work for a few more hours! 

12:30pm: A 5.5 hour shift means I’m technically finished at 12:30 on the dot, but I rarely ever leave right at that time. Like I said earlier, my legs are usually not prepared for the gruelling walk, so most days I’ll order lunch from work, find a shady little bench, and park myself there for 10-20 minutes while I eat. This gives me time to get some food in my system, and it also gives my legs an opportunity to recharge. Then I’ll do my commute again, except the opposite order: get the walking out of the way first, and then ride the train for the last stretch. 

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Not loving the summer heat, I have to say.

2:00pm: Once I get home, the first thing I do is kick off my shoes and flop down onto my chair/bed for a few minutes. This is usually when I take a few minutes (or a lot of minutes) to scroll through social media, call my friends, or watch a couple of YouTube videos. Then, I take a look at my to-do list and knock out anything vital. If I have to go to the pharmacy or get groceries, I’ll do that first, and then I’ll get a few chores done, such as mopping, paying bills, putting away dishes, or doing a load of laundry. The only “chore” I won’t do is my workout; I only do those on my off days. 

5:30pm: Around 5 or 6, I will prepare my dinner or order takeout, depending on what day it is. My favorite things to prepare for dinner are salads, skillet meals, or if I’m feeling lazy, macaroni and cheese or soup. I like to eat in my room because my housemates are usually home by this time and I’m not always feeling very social after being surrounded by people all day. My room is definitely my safe haven.

7:00pm: I take the rest of the evening to just unwind and have some fun, such as by playing The Sims or pouring over novels in bed. Lately, however, I’ve been on a huge Sims binge and I’ve been playing for hours and hours. I can’t help it, I’m just so obsessed with the game. You can ask anyone- it’s the #1 thing I do in my free time.

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We stan a good, healthy skillet meal. And yes, that’s veggie chicken!

10:00pm: This is usually the standard time I begin my nighttime routine. I take off my makeup, which is usually just eyebrow pencil on a work day, brush my teeth, take my medications and melatonin, and change into my pajamas. Most nights I call Nathaniel before bed so I can tell him about my day, and I can hear about his day as well. He’s been practicing guitar quite a bit lately, so I can hear him strumming cords in the background while we chat. The combination of his deep voice, him playing, and the melatonin setting in is usually what makes me sleepy. I try to have the lights out and the AC on by 11:00pm at the latest on a weeknight. If I have the next day off, well, I’ll probably stay up another hour or two.  The last thing I do before falling asleep is to put on a Vsauce playlist, because that’s what I like to listen to when I fall asleep. And then I’m out like a light!

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Look at this mans. Putting up with talking to ME every single night. A true hero. 

I hope you guys found this article interesting! I know it may not seem very exciting, but it is a busy day for me, and I usually feel proud of myself by the time I hit the pillow at night for getting so much done. Particularly with coronavirus, it’s important to me to stay busy so that I feel like I am being productive and making positive changes in my life.

Wednesday, July 15

Now that I have an AC, being stuck at home for most of my days is starting to feel quite more enjoyable! However, I think things will perk up even more next week, when I start my new job at Starbucks. I am so excited to meet new people and become a barista, and I’m even excited to get up early for my shifts! I definitely feel more productive and generally better about myself when I get up early.

I’m not sure if I’ve already mentioned this, but lately I’ve been trying to focus on making more positive lifestyle changes. For example, I’ve been trying to keep dibs on how much water I drink daily, and my current goal is to drink at least 60ml per day. I’ve also been working out a lot more, which was strenuous at first, but now it’s getting easier. I know it’s such a cliche when people say this, but I genuinely do feel great after a good workout! I feel energized and strong, and physically, my body feels amazing. 

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Peep my beautiful salad.

So those two things have been making me feel a lot better lately, and I’m really happy to be taking steps towards improving my wellness. Once I move in with Nathaniel some day, we’ll be able to motivate each other to stay healthy as well. He enjoys exercising as well, so I’m sure we’ll be hitting the gym together after it is safe to do so. 


Friday, July 17

I accidentally slept too much today, and as a result, my brain is feeling foggy. Does that ever happen to you? 

Anyway, it’s mid-afternoon now, I’m trying to combat my drowsiness by drinking lots of water and keeping my brain occupied. I’m looking for a new Netflix show to devour, so if you guys have any suggestions, let me know!

Anyway, I’m starting work on Monday, and I’m super excited to get out of the house and have something new to do. I’ve wanted to work at Starbucks for months now, and even though it may not sound like the most exciting goal to have, I genuinely am really looking forward to it. I think it sounds like an amazing opportunity to meet new people and keep my mind busy, as well as a much-needed income. 


Saturday, July 18

Hi everyone, I hope you’re all doing well. I’m doing pretty well, but I did have another rough night of sleep and I’m hoping this doesn’t become habitual for me. I’m also dealing with a bit of brain fogginess/dissociation, but unlike past experiences, I’m trying not to panic or overthink. I’m just doing my best to take care of myself and upkeep some sort of routine to comfort myself, so today’s agenda included laundry, mopping, vacuuming, and running errands. I was able to squeeze in a little baby nap after that (which I don’t normally do,) and now I’m burning my favorite candle in the living room and getting some writing done. There’s a chance I might see Buck at some point over the couple of days, so that would really brighten me up a lot. I’m planning a tie-dye/pizza date night for us, so I’ll be sure to let you guys know if that ends up happening! Stay safe, and continue to take care of yourselves.