The holiday season is right around the corner, and I’m feeling so excited to have this semester over and done with! I’ve been incredibly busy, so it’s going to feel great to relax for five weeks with my family. 

Anyway, today’s article is my winter mood board, and as you can see, I’m drawing a lot of inspiration from neutrals, whites, and feminine touches. 

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It may sound surprising to many people, but winter is actually one of my favorite seasons. It probably has to do with me being an introvert; I love to spend time indoors snuggled up with a blanket and a good movie. I also love Christmastime, because it means I get to spend time with my family and friends who I may not get to see often (for example, Eli). I decided to incorporate lots of scenic images of wintertime into this moodboard because it really sums up the energy I’m trying to emote this winter: placid, calm, and graceful.

Additionally, I included a few shots of  sweaters and beanies that I found on google, because I’m really into neutral colors (like I said) and warm, fuzzy fabrics. A good chunk of my closet right now consists of pastel acrylic sweaters, beanies with pompoms, and warm, neutral-toned winter scarves. I like to wear clothes that can be easily layered and customized, because you never know what to predict weather-wise in New England! I also feel like neutrals match my current makeup style very well, which is mostly warm-toned smokey eyes and red lips. I’m hoping to get the “Proof is in the Pudding” palette by Beauty Bakerie in my winter Fab Fit Fun box, because I think that also ties into my current aesthetic well!

Lastly, I wanted to include a couple images of my favorite indoors activities: drinking tea and burning candles! No matter where I am and what I’m doing, I always have at least 4 candles burning throughout my apartment back home. There’s something about the comfortable glow combined with that Christmas-y smell (I burn winter candles year-round) that puts me in a great mood. Right now, my favorite candle is “Crisp Fall Night” by Yankee Candle, and I also love pine-scented tea light candles as well. As for tea, I’m proud to say that I am finally coming around to enjoying tea. I didn’t find it appealing for a while, but now I’m absolutely obsessed with Trader Joe’s Winter Wake Up tea, with a little milk and sugar added.

Anyway, I feel like this moodboard really sums up how my December is going: filled with warm beverages, sweet-smelling candles, and lots of knitting. I’m looking forward to spending the holidays with my family, and of course, I’m really excited about writing more content for blogmas! My next post is going to be one of my favorite things to write- a holiday gift guide! So keep your eyes out for that. 🙂

Monday, December 2

I’m back at school after a wonderful Thanksgiving break, but I won’t be here much longer! I’m technically on winter break December 14th, but I have to come back four days later to take ONE EXAM. I’m not really counting that as part of school, however, because I’ll already be moved out by then and the exam will only take about twenty-five minutes. Still, I’m a little annoyed to have to drive all the way back to school just to take one exam. 

I’m feeling pretty tired right now, even though I had my regular morning coffee. I might go ahead and make myself a tea, because I’m going to have a long day and I need to keep my energy levels up. Today is my first meeting for Analog, and even though half of the team can’t be there, I’m excited to lay down the groundwork for this organization!

It’s also snowing right now, which is beautiful to look at from my window (but less fun to walk in). Two of my classes were cancelled due to the snow, so I’m taking this opportunity to tackle some school work due next week. It seems surreal I have less than two weeks left in the semester!

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Friday, December 6

So, I’ve definitely slacked a bit on my catch-up this week, but in my defense, I have been very busy. I’ve been essentially glued to my computer trying to get work done, so thankfully, I’ve reached the end of a very productive week! Between working on Analog, securing my capstone, chatting with potential employers, and knocking out tons of presentations, it’s definitely been chaotic around here. I’m looking forward to simply relaxing and playing The Sims 4 this weekend.

Next week is my final week of classes, and I’m looking forward to coming home and sleeping in my own bed next Friday. I’ve also made plans to see some of my high school friends over winter break, so I’m really excited about that. Per usual, it will be a pleasure to see Eli as well.

I’m going to try to get some blogging done this week, because I’m falling a bit behind on that, but it’s important to me that I don’t overwork myself. Especially since I have such severe sleep problems, making time for relaxation is very important to me. Tonight I’m going to go watch a talent show with one of my classmates, then I might swing over to my friend’s resident hall to keep her company while she’s on RA duty.

Happy December, everybody! In celebration of Christmastime, I’ve decided to start an annual Blogmas tradition. For the entire month, every article I post will be holiday-related in some capacity. Per usual, I will still be posting my weekly catch-ups, but those won’t count towards the twelve days of Blogmas. While most of these posts are centric to Christmas, I would still like to be inclusive to those who do not celebrate Christmas but still want to enjoy my content. With that in mind, some of these articles are simply winter recipe guides, winter-themed makeup looks, and moodboards that everybody can enjoy, regardless of what you celebrate!

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Photo by Candis Hidalgo on Pexels.com

 I’d like to note that there are pre-created templates you can use for your own Blogmas, but for me personally, I just came up with my own article ideas. Feel free to use my ideas for your own Blogmas, if you like them and want to incorporate them into your own template.

Here are the articles I have planned thus far:

Monday, December 2: Introduction to Blogmas

Wednesday, December 4: What’s in Season + Winter Recipe Guide

Friday, December 6: Eyeshadow Palette Collection + Winter-themed Makeup Looks

Monday, December 9: Winter Mood Board

Wednesday, December 11: Official Holiday Gift Guide

Friday, December 13: Holiday Outfit Ideas for Women

Monday, December 16: Stocking Stuffer Ideas

Wednesday, December 18: Holiday Movie Ideas

Friday, December 20: Holiday Craft Tutorial

Monday, December 23: My Personal Holiday Traditions

Wednesday: December 25: No article. Merry Christmas!

Friday, December 27: Re-visiting my 2019 Resolutions

Monday, December 30: What I Got For Christmas

In total, that is twelve Christmas-themed articles planned for the month of December! If there is anything in particular that you the readers would like to see, let me know in the comments below and I’ll see what I can work in. I’m looking forward to starting this new tradition and sharing it with all of you. 🙂

Monday, November 25

Good morning, everybody! I hope you’re all having a great day. I’m looking forward to a short week; tomorrow is my last day of classes before Thanksgiving break. Then, I come back for two weeks, and I’m done for the semester on December 14! Very exciting stuff.

I’m especially happy today because I got a lot of work done with my advisor this morning. We decided that Analog, the new publication I started, is going to be my capstone (for those of you who don’t know, my capstone is basically my big senior research project). So spring 2020 is going to be all about developing Analog, and managing some great content on there. With that being said, I’m going to start posting twice a week instead of thrice a week on The Diplomat’s Digest starting in January, because I’m going to have my hands quite full as it is. We also got some work done for my internship search, and I’ve started filling out forms for my graduation ceremony. So that’s all been very eventful.

I’m just finishing up my morning black coffee; next I’m going to print out some school forms and work on my writing projects until my 2pm class. It feels surreal that the semester is almost over, doesn’t it?


Wednesday, November 27

With the end of the semester in sight, I’ve been running around like a headless chicken trying to get all my work, academics, and projects wrapped up. I’m pursuing a directed study capstone, which means I’m going to be working completely independently on my final senior project. I’ve also been doing a lot of applying, interviewing, and researching for my spring internship. I’ve discovered some really interesting organizations, and I would be truly happy to work for any of them. I’ve never had a “big girl” job like this before, so I’m really excited about the prospect of having an internship. Many of them are looking for a person who can juggle multiple tasks at once, and that’s definitely my specialty, if I do say so myself.

Additionally, Eli is home for Thanksgiving and I’m SO excited to see him. We’re probably going to hang out tonight, and maybe take Duke for a walk downtown. I don’t get to see him very often, so I cherish the time that we spend together.

Speaking of Duke, he just came in from his afternoon walk, so I’m going to go cuddle him now!


Friday, November 29

To those who celebrate, I hope you all had a safe, happy Thanksgiving! I had a perfectly lovely time with my family. My mom and I spent most of the day cooking in the kitchen, which was a great bonding experience for us. The meal was also delicious, and my apple pie came out amazing. It was a very low-key, relaxing holiday, and I’m grateful that I was able to spend it with the people I love.

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My mom and Cooper being absolute angels!

Wednesday night was also a ball. Eli and I went to Olive Garden and spent some quality time together. We talked about how much we’ve changed since high school; I told Eli I found him to be more confident, and he said something along the lines of me being more comfortable with myself. I also asked my mom how I’ve changed since high school, and she said I’m more “reasonable.” I’d have to agree with both of those things.

My sleep schedule has improved a lot since being home, by the way. There’s something about sleeping in a big, comfy bed with my dog and some fresh-smelling sheets that always puts me to sleep instantly. Right now, Duke is sleeping by my feet while I write this. He’s had an exciting couple of days, too, rolling around with Cooper and playing hide-and-seek with me. We’re both a bit tired from all the festivities, so I’m happy to be doing some work in bed with him. I already had my morning coffee, but some wake-up tea might be in order as well.


Saturday, November 30

Thanksgiving break has been absolutely lovely so far; I’m already looking forward to coming back home for winter break in two weeks. Today has been a very relaxing, low-key day, and I’ve spent the entire time by myself (an introvert’s dream!). I’ve primarily been taking care of Duke, because my mom is up in Maine with my stepdad. Today I cleaned most of the house for my mom, scrubbing and vacuuming and all the such. Now the house is sparkling clean, and I’ve got the winter candles burning while I enjoy a cup of tea. By the way, Winter Wake Up tea from Trader Joe’s is AMAZING, and I highly recommend it.

For those of you wondering how my anxiety/insomnia is, both have greatly improved over the course of the last few weeks. I’d say the escitalopram is definitely back in my system and keeping me pretty calm, so that’s been very helpful. The insomnia is still a bit of a bother, but I can usually get about 4-5 hours of sleep when I’m at school. When I’m home, however, I sleep fabulously. These past few nights, I’ve been hitting the sack at 9:30pm and sleeping straight through 8am. It’s such a luxury!

My mom should be home in an hour or two; around the same time my old friends Mara and Eli are coming to hang out for a night of hot chocolate and Christmas movies. It’s never too early for the holiday spirit, as I say 🙂

The past few years have been a unique experience for me, diet-wise. I went vegetarian in the December of 2017, and was strictly vegan from May 2018 to May 2019. I’ve returned to eating eggs and milk now, but I’m still proudly vegetarian and intend to stay that way forever. I might even go back to being vegan in the future, we’ll see what happens!

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Anyway, it goes without saying that Thanksgiving hasn’t been the same since I’ve made these changes. Actually, it’s been better! I will say, it’s much easier to celebrate vegetarian Thanksgiving than vegan Thanksgiving. Every single side dish had to be separately prepared without butter/milk for me, and obviously turkey and meat is out of the question. This year, I’m happy that I’ll be able to enjoy the same sides as my family, and per usual, I’m opting for some very delicious Tofurkey. Today, I’m going to guide you through my Thanksgiving preparation with my mom, and spill the tea on what Tofurkey is really like for those of you who haven’t tried it. 

What are you guys’ thoughts on macaroni and cheese as a Thanksgiving side? I’m personally all for it. My mom’s homemade macaroni and cheese is one of my fondest Thanksgiving memories, and although it’s not quite as good as the kind at The Chicken Connection, it’s definitely a close second. I’m not quite sure if she invented the recipe, or if she took it from an ancient cookbook, but it’s delicious nonetheless. 

Now, let’s talk about fake turkey. As someone who hasn’t touched meat for almost two years, I don’t really remember what it tastes like and I don’t have anything to compare it to. I can say from personal experience that I do like the taste of tofurkey, and it’s especially delicious with the vegetarian gravy the box comes with! It’s also extremely easy to make, you just thaw it and bake it in the oven as you would with a regular turkey. In regards to appearance and texture, I think it looks just like the real deal. What do you guys think?

This year, I’ve decided to bake my own pie for Thanksgiving. I LOVE baking, as many of you probably know, but I don’t get to do it much due to always being away at college. This year, I’ve decided to make my own apple pie from an online recipe, but alter it a bit to add my own twist.

I hope you all have a very happy Thanksgiving, and stay safe as well. I’m looking forward to spending the holidays this year with my mom, stepdad, and our dogs, Duke and Cooper. Soviet Kitsch Analysis Part II will be out on Friday, and after that, Blogmas begins! I’m looking forward to the rest of the year, and furthermore, starting some new exciting projects in the spring semester. I feel like this year is just flying by, don’t you?

Monday, November 18

I’m back on campus after a lovely weekend of being at home, and I feel so tired, I think I could pass out at any moment! I only have two classes today, and I’m hoping I can squeeze in a nap sometime after that.

This week, my focus is primarily going to be looking for an internship for the spring semester, and continuing to find a remedy for my insomnia. I will say that my anxiety hasn’t been too bad lately, so I’m happy about that! I think the escitalopram is finally starting to kick in.

Although my anxiety has been down and I’m really grateful for that, drowsiness and fatigue is definitely starting to take a toll on my academics. Now that I’m not running on pure adrenaline, I’m really feeling the effects of 0-3 hours of sleep per night. I’m still going to go to all my classes this week (at least, I’m planning on it), but I’m having a hard time feeling motivated to start my work. Right now, I’m so tired, I feel like I could fall asleep at my desk. I’m contemplating another coffee, but that might keep me up even more tonight. I guess we’ll see what happens!


Tuesday, November 19

Hey y’all, I hope you’re having a good week thus far. I managed to get a couple hours of sleep last night, so I’m happy about that. Tonight, my goal is to get three or four hours. Today, and last night, my nerves were especially rattled because I had impending apprehension about a speech/presentation I had to deliver today. I don’t like public speaking at all, but I managed to pull it together, and I’m actually really happy with how I did! Afterwards, I felt immediately at ease, and my nerves have been pretty stabilized since. 

It’s about seven-thirty right now; I know that sounds early, but I’ve already showered and began my bedtime preparation. I’m going to finish up this blog, watch a feel-good movie, and then take Unisom and Ativan right before I’m ready to try to sleep. Lately, I’ve been finding that Keeping Up With the Kardashians relaxes me a lot before bed, due to both the placid nature of the show and the calming voices of the sisters. Tonight, I might try knitting and listening to a podcast, because there are a few new ones I’d like to listen to. Overall, I had a pretty productive day, and I’m proud of myself for pulling out a good presentation!


Wednesday, November 20

You guys, I have amazing news. I was able to get a whole EIGHT HOURS of sleep last night! I put on a podcast after I took my pills, put my head down on the pillow, and I was out within a few minutes. I woke up for a bit around three, but I was back asleep quickly and slept until around 8am. I’m super happy with that, so I’m going to try to replicate last night’s routine again tonight.

I’m also feeling very ambitious and upbeat today, probably as a result of sleeping so well. I got breakfast with one of my friends today, and we talked about writing and publications on our college campus. Somehow, it came up that I could start my own publication, and now I’m feeling really inspired by that notion. I’m already pretty well-versed on WordPress, so it would be easy to add another site. I’m a little nervous to add another site because I don’t remember the Diplomat’s Digest password off the top of my head, so hopefully I don’t get logged out for adding a site! Lol. 


Friday, November 22

I’ve recently started taking melatonin tablets, so my nightly sleep has increased from about 2 hours to 4 hours. That’s better than nothing! Hopefully, it will just get better from here.

Right now, I’m sitting in Tatte Cafe with my good friend, Lily. She’s an amazing person, and has helped me find some amazing internships to apply for tonight. It feels good to be getting work done! I’m excited to find the perfect internship, because I genuinely love working and feeling like I matter in society. A lot of the internships I applied for are non-profit agency jobs, so I’ll definitely be able to help people in need. Updates to come on that.

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Woo, getting shit done!

I feel happy with the amount of work I’ve done today, and overall, it’s been a good week! I’m especially proud of my persuasive presentation I gave on Tuesday, because I was super nervous about that and I think I did an alright job. There were some negatives from this week: my Relovv story for my school’s magazine got dropped because of a “page count miscalculation”, I got friendzoned by a girl I was into, and my step dad’s dog might have cancer. Nonetheless, I think I’m ending the week on a good note, and I’m looking forward to a weekend of (hopeful) rest.

Monday, November 11

Today is Veteran’s Day, which means no classes. I am grateful for the three-day weekend, because my anxiety is still in rough shape and I’m in no condition to be in class as it is. I’ve talked about this odd panic spell I’m in a little bit, but I’ll give you the full story in case you’re confused/out of the loop.

About two weeks ago, I started to have some problems sleeping. I didn’t particularly feel super anxious at the time, but I was restless and frustrated with the insomnia. Then, throughout the rest of the week (probably due to sleep deprivation) I started to feel really…wonky. Crying, panicky, nervous, irritated, generally just “off” and “disconnected.” These are all very common symptoms of PMDD and GAD, so I was familiar with the feeling and tried to remind myself I’d be feeling back to normal soon.

I felt briefly fine when I went home for four days so I could completely recuperate, but it was basically hell again when I got back to school that weekend. Slowly, day by day, my anxiety would just sink worse and worse, my crying would intensify, and my overall feeling of “offness” and dread was seriously starting to interfere. These past few nights, I’ve been running on 4-5 hours of sleep, usually interrupted by horrific anxiety attacks, nausea, and even painful legs. It’s hard to get rest when your legs are killing you every night and you’re throwing up into your trashcan, all because of anxiety.

I’d like to make a very resounding note that this is anxiety, NOT depression. I’m not feeling emotionally distraught or hopeless or anything dangerous- I’m just extremely anxious and, as a result, unstabilized. With that being said, I’m not in any kind of danger (or a danger to anyone else), and I am trying my very best to take constructive steps in the right direction. This particular weekend has been a bit rough in particular- I was essentially bedbound today- but now I’m feeling a bit stronger and willing myself to set healthy goals for myself.

The first thing I did was reach out to my college’s counseling program to set up a therapy appointment. Even though my body seems to be having a physical panic reaction that a therapist likely can’t fix, I still think it will be helpful to talk to one and learn some insight. So I’m looking forward to that. 

I’ve also resumed taking escitalopram, or Lexapro, at 10mg per day. The medication may take a while to kick in, but I should be feeling at least a little less edgy by the end of the week. I also have my Ativan prescription, which I am utilizing in the absolute most panic emergencies.

Furthermore, I’ve been spending a lot of time with my friends and loved ones to have an extra source of support and reassurance. My mom has been an absolute angel, bringing my medicines and listening to me vent and cry. Eli and Lily, my good friends, have given me so much comfort and great advice! One thing in particular I love Eli said was along the lines of this: “You should not feel guilty about reaching out for help, so don’t be afraid to advocate for yourself.”

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By the way, I dyed my hair blonde!

Eli is absolutely right. I have to advocate for myself and my health, because no one else will. I am going to set a concrete goal to go to all of my classes this week, register for my spring courses, and meeting all of my important academic commitments. Right now, that’s my biggest goal- just to get through the week academically.

I’ve already broadcasted to my friends via social media that my anxiety and panic is basically holding me hostage this week, and I’m going to need some extra space and distance to keep myself in check (unless I reach out to them first, such as Eli or Lily). I’m usually happy to help people with their problems and listen to them vent, but right now, I need to detach from that and spend some time taking care of me.

The past two weeks have been some of the hardest of my life, purely because of my anxiety. Like I said, I am not depressed or in a dangerous place- I’m just literally hinged and bedbound by my extremely intense panic. I don’t know why my anxiety has suddenly sparked to badly, but I’m going to do my very best to be strong. With any hurdle in life, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel, and I know this anxiety spell will pass soon!

 


Tuesday, November 12

It’s currently mid afternoon, and all of my classes are finished for the day. I wanted to jot down some quick updates about my anxiety, and how I’m holding up now that classes have resumed.

In general, I’m doing pretty okay right now. My anxiety is still higher than usual, but it’s not bad enough that I’m crying, bedbound, and throwing up. So I’d say that’s definitely an improvement. I can also go a few minutes without thinking about my anxiety, so I’m proud of that. 

In regards to sleep patterns, I’m still in a pretty tedious place. I felt pretty calm when I fell asleep last night, because I called my mom and I had Ativan in my system. I had some severe anxiety around 2am, but it wasn’t bad enough that I threw up or had to call someone. I sort of just waited it out, and distracted myself for a couple hours, and I was asleep around 4pm. So I’m not sure if that’s progress, but it’s definitely not a degression!

I’m hoping I’ll start to notice some positive effects from the Lexapro within the next couple of weeks. I know it takes a while to work, but I should start to feel relief from the edge soon. Tonight I’m going to work on a class project with a friend, then I’m going to take the rest of the afternoon to relax, light a candle, and focus on keeping my panic down. Updates to come.


Wednesday, November 13

I’m in relatively good spirits, albeit my insomnia was awful last night and I didn’t sleep at all. That being said, my anxiety is pretty high so I’m running on pure adrenaline, and I’m not sleepy at all. So, that’s good I guess?

Last night was actually very lovely, and I even made some new friends! (And my existing friends took very good care of me). I decided to go to my university’s pride club, and I had a really lovely time partaking in the discussions and meeting new people. I’ll definitely be attending more meetings in the future!

Anywho, today is going to be a bit busier than usual. I have three classes today, then a study group, then a house meeting. After that, I’m hoping I can find some anxiety relief and get a few hours of sleep. I’m looking forward to this weekend, because I’m going home to spend some time with my mom and stepfather. They take such amazing care of me, especially in hard times such as now.


Saturday, November 16

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I admittedly forgot to write Thursday, and yesterday I was busy travelling home, but now I have (finally) found the time to sit down and get some work done! I’m happy to report that I’m in very good spirits, and since I’ve been home, I’ve hardly had any anxiety. I’m even starting to feel sleepy, which is something I haven’t felt in a long time due to ongoing adrenaline.

Today I visited Mount Agamenticus in Maine with my family, with was really lovely. I’m not really a big hiker, but the fresh air felt good and I had a great time. It’s much later in the evening now, and like I said, I’m starting to feel veeery sleepy, so I hope I can get a good night’s sleep. I’m glad I decided to come home for a short break; it’s been so rejuvenating and rewarding to spend time with the people I love. I hope you all had a fun weekend, too!

 

As a senior in college, I’m no stranger to The Dorm Life™. I lived in a double for the first semester of college, but for the last couple of years I’ve had my very own medical single! Obviously, every situation is different and some of these tips may not be applicable to you, but in general, these are my recommendations for how to make the most of your space.

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First and foremost, if you’re going into your first year, take a piece of my advice and cut back on school supply shopping. One of the biggest shocks to me coming into college was the fact that 95% of my work is done on my laptop and submitted online, so things like highlighters, binders, paper, and folders are essentially useless. You will probably want to consider getting some of these things, just in case, but I promise you won’t have to go overboard like you did in high school. You simply don’t need 5 accordion folders, 200 pens, and five stacks of notebook paper to get good grades. All you need is a reliable computer and a pair of headphones, and you should be all set. This will not only clear up space in your dorm, but also space in your school bag!

The best thing I ever invested in space-wise for college was a garment rack. They’re pretty easy to find (I got mine on Amazon), and come apart fairly painlessly at the end of the school year. Now that I put all of my clothes on this rack, I have a completely free closet to fill with other things! For me personally, I fill my closet with pantry staples, towels, and coats. It really does make a huge difference in dorm space, and the clothing rack itself isn’t too mass-intensive. I also like to store my shoes on the bottom part of the rack, which helps me to free up even more space in my room.

Most college dorm beds can be adjusted lower or higher, depending on what you prefer. For me, I keep mine pretty close to the ground, but not low enough that I can’t utilize under-bed storage. Get yourself two or three big plastic bins and specifically designate them for supplies you’ll need. I have one bin under my bed for spare sheets and pillowcases, and another one for feminine hygiene products and other spare shower supplies. It does wonders for making my room feel extra organized, and again, it helps me free up quite a bit of extra space. 

This kind of relates to the first point I brought up, but try to only bring things you know that you’ll use on a daily/weekly basis. This can be really difficult, because overpacking is something I think we’re all guilty of. When you’re packing for college, take some time to really think practically about the things you pack. How likely is it that you’ll actually use the thing you’re packing? Can you picture yourself using it within the next few days or next few weeks? If not, it might just be taking up extra space. This may seem like a trivial tip, but it has actually helped me cut back on so much extra stuff I don’t need. It certainly makes moving in and out of my dorm that much easier at the beginning and end of the semester.

It’s a pretty standard college fact that you will slowly amass things in your dorm over time, much of which you won’t really need or use. Regularly declutter and donate things that you’re not using, such as spare clothes, cans of food, of knick knacks just sitting around. Relating to the last point, I sometimes bring duplicates of things I already own, and end up donating them because they’re just sitting and taking up space (such as scarves, skincare products, bed sets, etc). I don’t need two bottles of lotions or two bathrobes in my dorm. If I discover I have a duplicate, I’ll either send one home or re-gift it to a friend. You’ll find that this not only makes your room feel lighter, but can make you feel lighter as a person as well.

Anywho, those are my top five tips for staying organized and decluttered at school! I’m about twelve weeks into my senior year, and my room is still just about as organized as it was when I first moved in. Every week or so, I go through my things and throw away what needs to go, and generally give my room a little pick-me-up. I think cleaning often for smaller amounts of time is way more enjoyable than doing one giant clean-out every season, and it feels much more practical, too. I hope my tips have helped you, and I’d love to hear some of your pieces of advice in the comments as well!

I was planning on publishing  “Giving My Friend a Vintage Makeover” today (as I have been trying to do for weeks), but I still can’t find anyone to use for the challenge! Or maybe, I just don’t have any friends? It’s hard to say. Instead, I’m going to be doing a ♡fall tag♡ today. With fall being my favorite season, it made sense that I should give this tag a try! Also, I didn’t come up with any of these- full credit goes to a website called Tag Questions. With all of that out of the way, let’s get into it!

(Also, my apologies for how LONG this is!)


Describe your feelings of fall rain in three words.

Petrichor, calming, and ASMR.


Which two things tell you that the fall season has begun?

Living in New England, the chilly weather and the changing colors of the leaves are always a good indication!


What are your plans for this fall season?

My top priority this fall is to get through school, but in regards to “fun things”, I’m looking forward to taking nature walks and celebrating Thanksgiving with my mom’s side of the family.


Silent nights or windy ones? What do you love more about fall?

I like silent nights because wind makes me anxious for some reason.


Cold rain or heavy fog. What do you enjoy more?

Uhhh, BOTH. But if I had to pick, I’d say cold rain because I love feeling all cozy and warm inside while it absolutely pours outside.


What three things you love about the season?

I love bundling up in warm clothes, watching scary movies, and burning my favorite candles.

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What three things you hate about the season?

I’m not a big fan of midterm exams and excessive sports talk. I honestly can’t think of a third thing.


Share your best memory for the autumn season?

I always loved celebrating Halloween with my cousins growing up; we’re all a bunch of goofballs and trick-or-treating was always such a fond memory!


What is your favorite scent for the fall season?

I love the general change of the air during fall, and the smell of smoky fire pits. I also love my two current fall candles by Yankee Candle, “Crisp Fall Night” and “Spiced Pumpkin.”


What is your favorite autumn movie?

It’s The Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown, and The Shining


What’s the most beautiful thing about the fallen leaves?

Could I sound more cliche? I love the reds and the oranges. I also love the way the leaves look in a puddle.


Do you enjoy movies in the bed or near the fire?

I love watching movies in bed, especially considering I don’t have a fireplace.


In the autumn, what do you enjoy most with your partner?

If by partner you mean my dog, we love to cuddle and listen to the rain.


Do you ever go for the hiking in autumn? If yes, how was the experience?

I’ve never been a big hiker!


Have you ever gone for apple picking?

Yes, I used to go all the time with my friends and family. Sadly, being away at school, I don’t get to engage in many fall-themed activities anymore!


What is the best way to enjoy the rain of fall season?

To curl up with a good book and some blankets, and listen to the rain fall while you read well into the night.


Describe the romantic nature of the fall season in one sentence.

Evening walks + apple cider + candle burning = perfect date night.


Watching TV or Raking leaves? What do you prefer in the autumn?

Who likes recreationally raking leaves? Is that a thing? TV all the way.


What is your favorite fall color?

I love reds and oranges, especially when incorporating those colors into my clothes and makeup. 


Autumn or winter? What do you like the most?

Probably autumn, though I do love Christmastime almost just as much.


Autumn or spring. In your opinion, what’s more romantic?

I think autumn is more romantic, for reasons previously stated, but I also love spring because it’s my birth season.

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What is your favorite dress code for the fall season?

SCARVES.


Share your worst memory related to the autumn season.

I don’t think I have one? If I think of one, I’ll edit it in.


Do you believe that autumn fall season should be the wedding season?

Absolutely. I’d love to have a fall wedding!


What do you most like to drink in the fall season?

I drink coffee year-round, but I especially love a Starbucks Caramel Macchiato in fall. 


What could be a perfect date for the autumn season?

Pumpkin/apple picking, a brisk evening walk, and drinking coffee together in a cozy cafe.


Fall day or fall night. Which one looks more beautiful to you?

Fall evening, so neither!


The smell of pumpkin guts or rotting leaves. What do you love?

I guess rotting leaves is that “different air smell” I was alluding to earlier, so I’d pick that.


Have you ever tried pumpkin carving? If yes, so how was the experience?

My mom, brother, and I used to do it all the time when I was little. I remember loving the day I could pick out my own pumpkin, as if it was a new pet or something.


What is your favorite movie scene related to the autumn?

In tune with my favorite fall films, I really like the beginning sequence of The Shining when the camera is panning over the wilderness.


Which fashion trend you often prefer in the fall season?

Muted colors, boots, tights, and of course, scarves.


What type of music do you like in the fall season?

Lately I’ve been listening to a lot of 70s-80s folk, such as John Denver, Eagles, and Tom Petty. I don’t know if this is necessarily a fall-thing, or if this is just my current taste at the moment.


Hat or cap? What do you prefer in the autumns?

I rarely wear either, actually. Wool makes me quite itchy.


Haunted house, haunted food ride, or haunted corn maze? What do you like in the autumn season?

I pretend to like haunted houses, but in practical application, I’d probably pick the corn maze.


Share your feelings when you see the birds migrating?

Wow, look at those birds, doing their natural thing. Whack. 


Do you like baking in the autumn season?

I LOVE baking in any season, but especially fall! I’m really looking forward to baking all sorts of goodies for Thanksgiving!

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Raking leaves or climbing trees. What’s your favorite in the autumn season?

Damn, looks like raking leaves is actually going to win this time. I’m not coordinated enough to climb a tree.


What types of music do you love to listen in the fall season?

Fall, classic rock, and after Thanksgiving, Christmas music 🙂


When you go outside, do you love to experience your blowing breathes?

I’m probably too distracted with thinking “Jesus Christ, I’m so f#%$cking cold.”


Which song you often sing in the autumn?

Lately I’ve had “Annie’s Song”, “Summertime”, and “Somewhere Only We Know” on repeat.


What is your favorite meat food in the falls?

I’m a vegetarian, so that’s a big nope. I like Tofurkey, though? Can we count that as a meat replacement?


What is your favorite food in the fall season?

I love pumpkin or caramel anything. I also love mashed potatoes with a ton of vegetable gravy.


What is your favorite thrifty activity in the falls?

Funny you mentioned thrifty, I just ordered some new clothes from ThredUp to celebrate the fall season!


Halloween or Thanksgiving. Which one is your favorite day? (For the people in the UK, you can change Thanksgiving with the Harvest Festival)

As I’ve gotten older, I definitely prefer Thanksgiving. I don’t do much to celebrate Halloween these days.


Wool or knit sweaters? What do you like to wear in the fall season?

Wool makes me itchy, so I tend to wear a lot of cotton and knitted blends in both the fall season and year-round. Also, unrelated to the question, but I HATE wearing jeans and find them so itchy. 


Sweet or salty pumpkin seeds. Tell your favorite one for the autumn season?

I’ve never eaten pumpkin seeds before, but theoretically, I’d probably go for the sweet variety. 


Do you like to explore haunted places in the falls?

Again with the theoretics, I probably would! When I was younger (middle/high school age), my friends and I used to be really into exploring haunted places. Now that I’m older, I’ve sort of lost interest in the hobby. I’m also much more paranoid than I used to be.


Tell the best eternal feeling you have in the fall?

Just the feeling of warmth from comfy clothes, and the beauty from the fiery leaves, makes me so happy and puts me in a relaxed mood. 


Which place do you love to visit in the autumn season?

There’s a cute little local farm in my hometown that I love to visit during the autumn months. There are fruit-picking events, hayrides, and adorable animals at the farm, so it really puts me in a good mood to pay a visit there. I recently went there with Eli when he was home for a short break! 


Which place you wish to visit in the fall season?

I wish I could go to more fall festivals and spooky things, such as Screamfest in Salem, New Hampshire. Salem Massachusetts is also a place I’ve wanted to visit during fall, because it’s famously spooky and I love the aesthetic. I have been to Salem, MA, but that was for neurotesting at the hospital and not holiday-related, lmao. 


Fairy lights or candles? What is your choice in the falls?

CAAAAAAANDLESSSSS.


How do decorate your room in the falls?

Right now I have my fall candles (duh) and my pumpkin, whom I have named Clyde. 


Do you love raking the leaves on the lawn or do you leave them where they fall?

I don’t do my own yard work because I live on campus, so I guess I just leave them there. Ba dum tss.


What comes to your mind when you see the leaves fallen down?

Jesus, why are there so many questions about leaves?


What three things you love to keep in your room for the fall?

My candles, my favorite fuzzy gray throw blanket, and a bottle of Ibuprofen.


What is your favorite tea flavor in the fall?

I’ve never been an avid tea drinker, but if I had to pick one, I’d say something fruity or sweet.


Do you ever change your way to run through the autumn leaves?

I’m literally laughing about the leaf questions at this point. 


In your opinion, which leaves have the best color in the fall season?

I like the brightest leaves, such as the bright reds and oranges. I feel like I’m being quizzed on leaves.


Have you ever experienced pumpkin picking in the fall?

Yes, I used to go all the time with my family, and I picked out the pumpkin in my dorm a few weeks ago! Clyde is still going strong.


Which is your most loved pumpkin-based food?

I love pumpkin pie above anything else.


Which moisturizer is your favorite in the autumn season?

Right now I’m using the body souffle by Human + Kind, which I got in my fall Fab Fit Fun box.


Which lipstick color you love in the falls?

My favorite lipstick right now is a dark orange color by Lime Crime called “Sparrow.”


Apple pie or Pumpkin Pie. What’s your favorite?

I do love pumpkin pie, but I love apple just a little bit more. I’m planning on making an apple pie for Thanksgiving this year.


October or November? What’s your favorite month in the autumns?

Probably October because fall still feels fresh and new, and the weather hasn’t reached the frigid point yet.


Do you enjoy feeling the cold air, or do you wrap up warm?

Interestingly, I actually don’t get cold as much as other people. I don’t even put on a jacket until it’s at least 40-50 degrees Fahrenheit. That being said, I do love bundling up for bed in the fall.


How much do you love to enjoy the fire in the fall season?

I love fire pits and those types of things, but I don’t own one at the moment, nor do I have friends who invite me to things like fire pits. Being 20 is a weird time.


In the fall, do you love traveling or enjoying the season at home?

I feel so lucky to be in New England, I love enjoying it at home! This year is the first time I’m travelling to another state for Thanksgiving. My mom and I are going to Connecticut to spend Thanksgiving with her sister. 


Are you more energetic during the autumn season, or more laid back?

I suppose I’m more energetic because school has started up again, and that means I’m busy every week day.


Do you have any specific traditions to celebrate the fall season?

Not particularly, aside from Thanksgiving.


Name a person whom you loved and really miss in the fall season.

I miss my great-grandmother, who lived with me my entire life and passed away in 2014. She was such a nutty lady, and she always made the holidays so much fun.


What do you feel at the end of the fall season?

I feel pretty excited for Christmastime and winter break!!


Share your favorite quote related to the autumn.

“Yet not to thine eternal resting-place   

Shalt thou retire alone, nor couldst thou wish   

Couch more magnificent. Thou shalt lie down   

With patriarchs of the infant world—with kings,   

The powerful of the earth—the wise, the good,   

Fair forms, and hoary seers of ages past,   

All in one mighty sepulchre.   The hills   

Rock-ribbed and ancient as the sun,—the vales   

Stretching in pensive quietness between;   

The venerable woods—rivers that move   

In majesty, and the complaining brooks   

That make the meadows green; and, poured round all,   

Old Ocean’s gray and melancholy waste,—   

Are but the solemn decorations all   

Of the great tomb of man. The golden sun,   

The planets, all the infinite host of heaven,   

Are shining on the sad abodes of death,   

Through the still lapse of ages.”

-William Cullen Bryant,  an excerpt of “Thanatopsis” 


That’s pretty much everything! I’m going to tag @jayayewye (Jenni), @chatswithcheryl, and @thedeepblueday (Hils) to do this as well because I feel like they have some really awesome content, especially for lifestyle-related things! Go check them out 🙂 I hope you guys liked this fall tag! Sorry it is so stupidly long!

Here is a BLANK copy for whoever chooses to do this:

  1. Describe your feelings of fall’ rain in three words.
  2. Which two things tell you that the fall season has begun?
  3. What are your plans for this fall season?
  4. Silent nights or windy ones? What do you love more about the falls?
  5. Cold rain or heavy fog. What do you enjoy more?
  6. What three things you love about the season?
  7. What three things you hate about the season?
  8. Share your best memory for the autumn season?
  9. What is your favorite scent for the fall season?
  10. What is your favorite autumn movie?
  11. What’s the most beautiful thing about the fallen leaves?
  12. Do you enjoy movies in the bed or near the fire?
  13. In the autumn, what do you enjoy most with your partner?
  14. Do you ever go for the hiking in autumn? If yes, how was the experience?
  15. Have you ever gone for apple picking?
  16. What is the best way to enjoy the rain of fall season?
  17. Describe the romantic nature of the fall season in one sentence.
  18. Watching TV or Racking leaves? What do you prefer in the autumn?
  19. What is your favorite fall color?
  20. Autumn or winter? What do you like the most?
  21. Autumn or spring. In your opinion, what’s more romantic?
  22. What is your favorite dress code for the fall season?
  23. Share your worst memory related to the autumn season.
  24. Do you believe that autumn fall season should be the wedding season?
  25. What are your most likes drink in the fall season?
  26. What could be a perfect date for the autumn season?
  27. Fall day or fall night. Which one looks more beautiful to you?
  28. The smell of pumpkin guts or rotting leaves. What do you love?
  29. Have you ever tried pumpkin carving? If yes, so how was the experience?
  30. What is your movie scene related to the autumn?
  31. Which fashion trend you often prefer in the fall season?
  32. What type of music do you like in the fall season?
  33. Hat or cap? What do you prefer in the autumns?
  34. Haunted house, haunted food ride, or haunted corn maze? What do you like in the autumn season?
  35. Share your feelings when you see the birds migrating?
  36. Do you like baking in the autumn season?
  37. Racking leaves or climbing trees. What’s your favorite in the autumn season?
  38. What types of music do you love to listen in the fall season?
  39. When you go outside, do you love to experience your blowing breathes?
  40. Which song you often sing in the autumn?
  41. What is your favorite meat food in the falls?
  42. What is your favorite food in the fall season?
  43. What is your favorite thrifty activity in the falls?
  44. Halloween or Thanksgiving. Which one is your favorite day? (For the people in UK, you can change thanksgiving with the Harvest Festival)
  45. Wool or knit sweaters? What do you like to wear in the fall season?
  46. Sweet or salty pumpkin seeds. Tell your favorite one for the autumn season?
  47. Do you like to explore haunted places in the falls?
  48. Tell the best eternal feeling you have in the falls?
  49. Which place do you love to visit in the autumn season?
  50. Which place you wish to visit in the fall season?
  51. Fairy lights or candles? What is your choice in the falls?
  52. How do decorate your room in the falls?
  53. Do you love raking the leaves on the lawn or do you leave them where they fall?
  54. What comes in your mind when you see the leaves fallen down?
  55. What three things you love to keep in your room for the falls?
  56. What is your favorite teas flavor in the falls?
  57. Do you ever change your way to run through the autumn leaves?
  58. In your opinion, which leaves have the best color in the fall season?
  59. Have you ever experienced pumpkin picking in the falls?
  60. Which is your most loved pumpkin-based food?
  61. Which moisturizer is your favorite in the autumn season?
  62. Which lipstick color you love in the falls?
  63. Apple pie or Pumpkin Pie. What’s your favorite?
  64. October or November? What’s your favorite month in the autumns?
  65. Do you enjoy feeling the cold air, or do you wrap up warm?
  66. How much do you love to enjoy the fire in the fall season?
  67. In the falls, do you love traveling or enjoying the season at home?
  68. Are you more energetic during the autumn season, or more laid back?
  69. Do you have any specific traditions to celebrate the fall season?
  70. Name a person whom you loved and really miss in the fall season.
  71. What do you feel at the end of fall season?
  72. Share your favorite quote related to the autumn.

Monday, November 4

Good afternoon, everybody!

I’m feeling much better now that Hell Week™ is over and done with. I’ve also been sleeping normally again for the past few days, so I’m hopeful things will stay that way. This week is going to be a bit busy for me, because it’s my academic planning week (and the last one I’ll ever have to do)! Basically, this is the week I plan out all of my spring semester classes and meet with my advisor to discuss my plan. It’s really crucial that I get all of the classes I need, because I’m graduating in May and I need to fit in all of my requirements. Even if it’s stressful along the way, it somehow always works out in the end, so I’m trying to not focus too much anxiety on it.

Right now I have a salad and my favorite coffee order, a hot caramel macchiato with soy milk, with me while I get some blogging done before class. I’m feeling really good today because my first class isn’t until 2pm, so I had a lot of time this morning to get ready and make myself look nice. I’ve always been somebody who loves getting ready in the morning and doing my makeup, even if I’m not going anywhere special. It’s a relaxing way for me to practice self care and spend some time with myself and my face, which I’m finally starting to see the beauty in after feeling self-conscious about myself for so long.


Wednesday, November 6

I was hoping I’d be completely back to normal by now, but unfortunately, my anxiety is a little wonky and I’m still feeling very high-alert. I also had another rough night sleeping, and didn’t really fall asleep until 5am. The good news is, my first class isn’t until 11am, so I was still able to get (somewhat) decent rest until then. 

I guess the best way to describe how I’m feeling is “unfamiliar.” I feel out of touch with myself and my surroundings, which is frustrating, but I’m trying to remind myself that all of these symptoms are temporary and I’ll feel back to normal soon. This disconnected feeling does sometimes happen to me, but it never lasts for long and I’m usually back to feeling normal within a few days.  My “therapy” right now consists of extra-self care, emotional support from my friends, and trying to focus on happy thoughts, such as upcoming Thanksgiving recession and winter break next month! And, of course, writing has also been my savior and a way for me to feel “in touch” with myself again.

While I do enjoy being at school this semester and I feel comfortable with my friends and classes, I feel like the room where I live is somehow contributing to my problems. I don’t know what it is about my dorm room, but I sometimes feel very isolated and anxious to spend time there. I’m also a very associative person, so once I have one negative experience with a place or thing, there is usually a permanent negative connotation. This is basically the long, complicated way of me saying that the two bad nights I had last week are permanently tainting my feelings about my dorm.

I’m thinking about trying CBD, as I have been contemplating for a year or so now. I’ve tried pretty much everything else: therapy, essential oils, meditation, antidepressants, you name it. My anxiety just always finds a way to prevail and throw me off my rhythm. At this point, it’s not about curing anxiety, it’s just about managing it.

Anyway, I don’t mean to sound like such a downer! In general, I’m doing pretty alright, though a bit tired. I am so excited for Blogmas next month, because all of my articles will be winter holiday based to some capacity. I’m also looking forward to making my spring schedule, because I’m such a planner and I like to organize academic things. Hopefully everything goes smoothly and I’m able to get in all of the classes I need!


Friday, November 8

The days have been flying by lately, and I’m looking forward to the fast-approaching Thanksgiving break and then winter recession! The holiday season is one of my favorite times of the year, and I’m especially looking forward to spending the holidays with my mom’s side of the family. 

I have to say, I’m still in a bit of a weird funk and my sleep schedule is still really messed up. I’m trying not to analyze it too much so I can just let myself feel my feelings and move on, because I find that’s the best way to get out of feeling out of it. Occasionally, without reason, I’ll feel “off” or “disconnected” for a few days or weeks at a time. I’m wondering if it has to do with the recent daylight saving time clock changes, because the shorter days are definitely putting a damper on my mood. The best way I can describe it is like I feel as though I’m in a dream, and everything just feels a little…unfamiliar. It’s a very tricky feeling to describe, but it’s putting me on edge and making my anxiety worse. 

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Makeup is one of my favorite ways to keep myself happy and “grounded”

Anyway, I’m currently at the campus center with my good friend, Lily, who has been an absolute angel this week. She’s been really helping me to get out of my shell and socialize more, which is something I really appreciate while going through this odd funk. We also got ihop tonight, which was absolutely delicious, and burritos yesterday. Needless to say, my wallet would really appreciate it if I calmed down the food spending.

Moving on, I’m all cleared to register for my spring classes next week, so that’s an exciting update. I’m also going to have to take an internship next semester, which is required for me to graduate, and I’m *possibly* going to take an additional direct study course. I’m not entirely sure what a direct study is, but I think it basically means I’m going to do additional independent work for credit. So basically, it’s going to be a really busy spring semester, and I’m really looking forward to it!