Wednesday, March 18


I’m a bit behind on blogging, per the recent changes in my life, but I’m hoping I can play catch-up today and knock out a few articles. I don’t think I need to go into all the details of what the coronavirus is and how to self-quarantine and wash your hands (in fact, I’m sure most of you are tired of hearing about it,) so I’ll skip over all that and just give you a little recap of my week.

So, spring break technically started last Friday, but I had to stay on campus until Sunday due to some other obligations and timing issues I had to take care of first. It was strange being (mostly) alone on those last two days of campus; the mood was somber, the streets were empty, and most of my friends had already evacuated home. I did have a couple of RA friends still on campus, so I spent my Friday night hanging out with them (six feet apart) in the lounge. It was comforting to be surrounded by people, but obviously a very strange environment. My good friend Alanis and I talked about whether or not we want to come back to campus, because while all of our classes are now online, we still have the choice to decide if we want to stay in the resident halls. I had previously wanted to stay in the resident halls so I could still see my friends, but now that my college is really urging us to stay come and making it exceptionally difficult for us if we do stay (boxed meals instead of the dining hall, not being allowed to visit anyone, etc), I’ve decided I would like to stay at home. Buck was also a huge factor in my wrestling with the decision, because I love him so very much and it’s already hard enough being away from him for spring break. However, he does have a car and we are committed to still seeing each other as often as we can. In fact, he’s coming down for a few days this weekend to see me, so that will be so lovely and important. Don’t worry, we aren’t planning on leaving my house, and we have lots of self-quarantine ideas planned. The highlights include potting a plant together, having a wine tasting, and painting empty bottles. 

So, all of those turbulent (and isolating) changes are very annoying, but we make do with what we have. Another big stresser in my life is apartment hunting, because I don’t have a job right now but I desperately need to find a place to live after graduation. My two future housemates and I have landed on a few places we really like, so now it’s just a matter of settling somewhere and getting ready to move in. It’s scary, but exciting! 

An analogy I refer back to a lot in my life is the idea that we all carry backpacks and the big, heavy rocks in our backpacks represent all the problems and stressers we have in our lives. Obviously, my metaphorical backpack is pretty loaded up with some heavy boulders right now, so I’m trying to focus on what things I can “take out” of my backpack and set aside for now, just to lessen the burden of carrying everything all the time. Graduation/college/education is all very stressful, but there’s nothing I can do about it right now, so I’m not going to dedicate any worry towards that. Being isolated from my friends and my partner is also very stressful, but I know Buck is crazy for me just as much as I am for him, and we’re in it for the long haul. I don’t think he’s going anywhere, even if we can only see each other a few times a month, so I’m not going to worry about that, either. I guess my biggest form of stress right now is just the general uncertainty of not knowing how long this will drag on for. I suppose I’m fortunate to be a homebody, because I really don’t mind hanging out in the house all day. I’m quite content with my books and my laptop and my dog, so that’s what I’m using to keep myself occupied. And of course, seeing my lovely human this week will be an uplifting boost.

Oh, I’m also on my period and going through some major PMS, so I apologize for the general downbeat tone of my week! I’m trying to stay as optimistic as possible, so thank you all for sticking around and giving me a reason to keep writing.  

Sunday, March 22

Hi everyone, I hope you all had a great weekend despite (probably) being self-isolated and worried about the coronavirus. I actually had a very fabulous and busy weekend, hence why I didn’t have any time to write. It’s about 2:40pm now, and with a coffee in hand, this is the first chance I’ve had to sit down with my laptop. So, let’s start with Thursday evening and work our way to now.

Obviously, my circle of socialization is quite small right now; it’s essentially limited to my mother, my boyfriend, and Eli. Eli came over for a few hours on Thursday night and helped me finish a bottle of pinot grigio, and then we watched about three hours worth of America’s Next Top Model. Don’t worry, we made sure to sit a few feet apart! As crazy as times are right now, one of the silver linings for me is that Eli is home right now- indefinitely.

The next morning, I woke up to the news that my university had decided to cancel graduation in May and instead opt for a “virtual commencement”- something that was quickly met with backlash by us, the student body. Lots of petitions and confused, angry emails later, we received another email from the school stating that they will “quickly reconsider” their options and see if they can postpone graduation for a couple of months instead. We’re supposed to have a more definite answer within the next few weeks.

Following that exciting-ness, my day took a positive turn because Nathaniel (aka Buck, as he is affectionately nicknamed), came to stay with me for three days. In a really nice coincidental turn of events, my mom went up to Maine to see her fiance for the weekend, so Buck and I had the place to ourselves. We did mostly stay inside, as we are supposed to in these sickly times, but we also did take a couple of nature walks in the outdoors. Buck lives in western Massachusetts, so he’s not as accustomed to seeing the ocean as I am. It was such a wholesome, pure feeling of joy to see his excitement for the water and how the wind makes the sand float across the beach in ghostly streams. We also made burritos together, watched a lot of Jeopardy! (he’s a pro, I learned), and spent adequate time slow-dancing in my living room to The Grateful Dead. So altogether, a really beautiful weekend, and it was quite sad to see him go. But I’m planning on going out to western Mass to see him later this week or early next week, assuming a Shelter in Place isn’t ordered in Massachusetts.

Anyway, now I’m going to upload this blog, get some homework done (I have to read an entire book by tomorrow, yikes), and probably play The Sims later in the evening. I also want to do some watercolor painting, but there are only so many hours in the day, and I already have quite a few things planned. Thanks for reading; I’ll try to be more on top of my posting schedule this week!

Pictures from this weekend:








Monday, December 16

Hi all, I hope you’re having a restful week thus far. I certainly am, considering my sleep has improved tremendously and my anxiety is finally at bay. I’m really loving being at home and spending the holiday season with my mom, Mark, and our two dogs. The first night I was home, we wrote holiday cards and got some Christmas wrapping done, which really got me into the wintertime spirit! I’m mostly done with my Christmas shopping; I have one more thing coming in the mail for Eli, but the shop didn’t supply any tracking information so I’m not quite sure what day it will get here. I also have a Fab Fit Fun box that’s supposed to be arriving soon, but I (yet again) had some problems with FedEx that I’m trying to sort out. I’m pretty sure I received the wrong tracking information, because my box is currently on route to…Virginia? No, I’ve never been to Virginia or ever had an address there. Your guess is as good as mine in this situation. Anyway, Fab Fit Fun is sending me a replacement box, so at least there’s that. I’m hopeful it will get here before Christmas, because I had some gifts for my family in the box, but who knows what will happen. I’m honestly not too worried about it. 


I have to go back to my university on Wednesday to take a single exam, which is a bit of a bother, but at least I’ll finally have microeconomics over and done with. I’m basically done with all my work for the semester, I just have to ensure a few forms are finalized by January because I’m graduating in May. Also, great news! I got my dream internship this week! I’ll happily write more about that once I get closer to my start date in January. I’m so over the moon about that news! Anyway, I’m going to start working on the 12/18 article, and then I might go down to the gym. It’s been awhile since I’ve exercised, so I’m definitely long overdo. 

Tuesday, December 17

So, today I woke up to a pleasant surprise! My Fab Fit Fun box, which was originally on track to Virginia (of all places), has magically appeared on my doorstep today. So, this means I was able to finish my mom’s Christmas gift, and I’m now able to start working on my review of the winter box. I’m planning on releasing that article on January 3, so that I can have adequate time to test out the products I’m keeping for myself. 

I’ve had a very relaxing, lowkey day so far. I did a full face of makeup and used the new Beauty Bakerie palette I got in my box, so I’m feeling pretty good about myself today. My skin has been absolutely atrocious lately, perhaps due to the fact that I’ve reintroduced dairy, so I tend to feel a bit better about myself after I put some foundation on. After makeup, I spent the majority of my day hanging out around the apartment, answering emails and getting some writing done. I’m working on Friday’s article, which is going to be all about my holiday traditions, and I’m also going to get started on a list of interview questions for Analog. Speaking of Analog, I’m holding a holiday-themed party/meeting for my team on January 4, and I’m really looking forward to having everyone together. If you want to know more about my process of putting together a student-run publication, I’d be happy to write an article on it!

Thursday, December 19

Now that all my exams are finished, I finally feel like I’m officially on break! As I mentioned previously, I had to drive back to my university yesterday to take my final microeconomics exam. The exam was at the worst possible time of day, 3:30, so it was basically peak traffic time after I finished. A drive that should have taken fifty minutes took about two and a half hours, so that was a bit aggravating. Nonetheless, I’m glad it’s over with now. I really struggled in that class because I have a math learning disability, and there’s a language barrier with the professor, so I had a really difficult time grasping the material. Nonetheless, I think I passed, at least.

Happy 8th birthday, Duke!

After my exam, my mom and I went to the mall to return a pair of boots, and then we got some dinner together. We have a really strong bond, and I always look forward to spending quality time with her. I also saw Eli yesterday, which was a nice treat.

Today I don’t really have any plans, so I’m just going to hang at home and get some writing done. Eli and I might go to a cafe tonight, so I’m looking forward to potentially spending more time with him.

Monday, December 9

Hi everyone, hope you’re doing well! I’m personally in a very good mood this morning, and I’m especially happy because I’ve been able to sleep pretty decently these past few days. As some of you may know, I normally have extremely severe and debilitating insomnia while I’m at school. The fact that I’ve been able to sleep pretty well these past few days is amazing, so here’s what I’ve been trying that seems to work:

First of all, I move my phone to the other side of the room while I sleep. I used to always have my phone nearby so I could listen to ASMR or Bob Ross while I dozed off, but doing so also meant that I would ALWAYS check the clock throughout the night. Recently, though, my phone charger has started acting up because it’s so ancient, and the only thing that keeps it consistently charging is if I absolutely do not touch it. For that reason, I started plugging it in on the other side of the room, and now I sleep MUCH better. I’d always heard that moving your phone farther away could help with sleep, and gosh, does it work!

Additionally, I’ve stopped putting pressure on myself to get into bed insanely early. Back when I was only averaging about 2 hours of sleep per night, I was so exhausted, I would literally crawl into bed at 7:30pm, even if I wasn’t feeling sleepy yet. Doing so may sound like a good idea, but I think it actually made me sleep less. Now, I don’t even think about getting into bed until I’m actually sleepy, which is usually around 10pm or 11pm. Instead of rolling around in bed for four hours like I used to, I am now able to fall asleep pretty quickly because I don’t put “pressure” on myself to sleep, if that makes sense. 

The other thing that has been working for me is to take .5 mL of THC oil under my tongue every night. THC itself isn’t specifically for sleep, of course, but it does help me to feel very relaxed before bedtime. On top of THC, I also take 25mg of melatonin, a unisom pill, and a few other wellness supplements. I think the combination of all of these things has really improved both my ability to fall asleep, and the quality of my sleep itself. I’m definitely having more vivid dreams as well, which I believe is a sign that I am having a restful sleep.

Anyway, those are the things that have been helping me lately. It’s actually kind of amazing how drastically my sleep has improved, so hopefully things stay that way. I’ve also been listening to episodes of Mind Field on my laptop to help me focus on sleep, but I keep my laptop on the other side of the room as well and simply listen to the audio. If you also have problems with sleeping, hopefully some of these tips will be useful to you! Let me know if anything works. 

Wednesday, December 11

I’m almost to the end of my last week of classes, and I’m so excited to be back home this weekend! Like I said before, I do have to come back to my school next week to take one exam, but that should be painless and done with quickly. I’m trying not to think about it too much.

Anyway, just like last week, I’ve been extremely busy. Yesterday I was off campus for most of the day taking care of interviews and work for my internship search, so that was really rewarding. I’ve discovered some really amazing organizations through my internship search, and I’m seriously looking forward to my spring semester and what the future may hold. I feel like “adulting” is coming together nicely. 


Anyway, it’s the middle of the day now, and my plans are to have a quick lunch before my 3:30 Microeconomics class. Math and economics have never been my strong suit, so I’m not looking forward to either the class or the exam next week, but I’ll pull through nonetheless. I’ll be happy to never think about microeconomics and oligopoly ever again after this semester. 

Thursday, December 12

I hope you’re all having a peaceful, happy week! I can imagine many people are having the opposite, as it’s finals week for many students and the workload is stacked high. I’m actually holding out pretty well; I’m definitely very good at managing my time and getting things done quickly. I actually got all of my final school work done yesterday, so I spent today running all over campus trying to tie up the loose ends for my direct study capstone. I also held a meeting for the Analog social media team, and that was really productive and positive. We got some brainstorming done for January 2020, including potential story ideas. I’m doing a story about a small musician right now, and I’m thinking about emailing the Museum of Fine Arts for a story about the black history exhibit coming next month. Exciting stuff!

Monday, November 18

I’m back on campus after a lovely weekend of being at home, and I feel so tired, I think I could pass out at any moment! I only have two classes today, and I’m hoping I can squeeze in a nap sometime after that.

This week, my focus is primarily going to be looking for an internship for the spring semester, and continuing to find a remedy for my insomnia. I will say that my anxiety hasn’t been too bad lately, so I’m happy about that! I think the escitalopram is finally starting to kick in.

Although my anxiety has been down and I’m really grateful for that, drowsiness and fatigue is definitely starting to take a toll on my academics. Now that I’m not running on pure adrenaline, I’m really feeling the effects of 0-3 hours of sleep per night. I’m still going to go to all my classes this week (at least, I’m planning on it), but I’m having a hard time feeling motivated to start my work. Right now, I’m so tired, I feel like I could fall asleep at my desk. I’m contemplating another coffee, but that might keep me up even more tonight. I guess we’ll see what happens!

Tuesday, November 19

Hey y’all, I hope you’re having a good week thus far. I managed to get a couple hours of sleep last night, so I’m happy about that. Tonight, my goal is to get three or four hours. Today, and last night, my nerves were especially rattled because I had impending apprehension about a speech/presentation I had to deliver today. I don’t like public speaking at all, but I managed to pull it together, and I’m actually really happy with how I did! Afterwards, I felt immediately at ease, and my nerves have been pretty stabilized since. 

It’s about seven-thirty right now; I know that sounds early, but I’ve already showered and began my bedtime preparation. I’m going to finish up this blog, watch a feel-good movie, and then take Unisom and Ativan right before I’m ready to try to sleep. Lately, I’ve been finding that Keeping Up With the Kardashians relaxes me a lot before bed, due to both the placid nature of the show and the calming voices of the sisters. Tonight, I might try knitting and listening to a podcast, because there are a few new ones I’d like to listen to. Overall, I had a pretty productive day, and I’m proud of myself for pulling out a good presentation!

Wednesday, November 20

You guys, I have amazing news. I was able to get a whole EIGHT HOURS of sleep last night! I put on a podcast after I took my pills, put my head down on the pillow, and I was out within a few minutes. I woke up for a bit around three, but I was back asleep quickly and slept until around 8am. I’m super happy with that, so I’m going to try to replicate last night’s routine again tonight.

I’m also feeling very ambitious and upbeat today, probably as a result of sleeping so well. I got breakfast with one of my friends today, and we talked about writing and publications on our college campus. Somehow, it came up that I could start my own publication, and now I’m feeling really inspired by that notion. I’m already pretty well-versed on WordPress, so it would be easy to add another site. I’m a little nervous to add another site because I don’t remember the Diplomat’s Digest password off the top of my head, so hopefully I don’t get logged out for adding a site! Lol. 

Friday, November 22

I’ve recently started taking melatonin tablets, so my nightly sleep has increased from about 2 hours to 4 hours. That’s better than nothing! Hopefully, it will just get better from here.

Right now, I’m sitting in Tatte Cafe with my good friend, Lily. She’s an amazing person, and has helped me find some amazing internships to apply for tonight. It feels good to be getting work done! I’m excited to find the perfect internship, because I genuinely love working and feeling like I matter in society. A lot of the internships I applied for are non-profit agency jobs, so I’ll definitely be able to help people in need. Updates to come on that.

Woo, getting shit done!

I feel happy with the amount of work I’ve done today, and overall, it’s been a good week! I’m especially proud of my persuasive presentation I gave on Tuesday, because I was super nervous about that and I think I did an alright job. There were some negatives from this week: my Relovv story for my school’s magazine got dropped because of a “page count miscalculation”, I got friendzoned by a girl I was into, and my step dad’s dog might have cancer. Nonetheless, I think I’m ending the week on a good note, and I’m looking forward to a weekend of (hopeful) rest.

As a senior in college, I’m no stranger to The Dorm Life™. I lived in a double for the first semester of college, but for the last couple of years I’ve had my very own medical single! Obviously, every situation is different and some of these tips may not be applicable to you, but in general, these are my recommendations for how to make the most of your space.


First and foremost, if you’re going into your first year, take a piece of my advice and cut back on school supply shopping. One of the biggest shocks to me coming into college was the fact that 95% of my work is done on my laptop and submitted online, so things like highlighters, binders, paper, and folders are essentially useless. You will probably want to consider getting some of these things, just in case, but I promise you won’t have to go overboard like you did in high school. You simply don’t need 5 accordion folders, 200 pens, and five stacks of notebook paper to get good grades. All you need is a reliable computer and a pair of headphones, and you should be all set. This will not only clear up space in your dorm, but also space in your school bag!

The best thing I ever invested in space-wise for college was a garment rack. They’re pretty easy to find (I got mine on Amazon), and come apart fairly painlessly at the end of the school year. Now that I put all of my clothes on this rack, I have a completely free closet to fill with other things! For me personally, I fill my closet with pantry staples, towels, and coats. It really does make a huge difference in dorm space, and the clothing rack itself isn’t too mass-intensive. I also like to store my shoes on the bottom part of the rack, which helps me to free up even more space in my room.

Most college dorm beds can be adjusted lower or higher, depending on what you prefer. For me, I keep mine pretty close to the ground, but not low enough that I can’t utilize under-bed storage. Get yourself two or three big plastic bins and specifically designate them for supplies you’ll need. I have one bin under my bed for spare sheets and pillowcases, and another one for feminine hygiene products and other spare shower supplies. It does wonders for making my room feel extra organized, and again, it helps me free up quite a bit of extra space. 

This kind of relates to the first point I brought up, but try to only bring things you know that you’ll use on a daily/weekly basis. This can be really difficult, because overpacking is something I think we’re all guilty of. When you’re packing for college, take some time to really think practically about the things you pack. How likely is it that you’ll actually use the thing you’re packing? Can you picture yourself using it within the next few days or next few weeks? If not, it might just be taking up extra space. This may seem like a trivial tip, but it has actually helped me cut back on so much extra stuff I don’t need. It certainly makes moving in and out of my dorm that much easier at the beginning and end of the semester.

It’s a pretty standard college fact that you will slowly amass things in your dorm over time, much of which you won’t really need or use. Regularly declutter and donate things that you’re not using, such as spare clothes, cans of food, of knick knacks just sitting around. Relating to the last point, I sometimes bring duplicates of things I already own, and end up donating them because they’re just sitting and taking up space (such as scarves, skincare products, bed sets, etc). I don’t need two bottles of lotions or two bathrobes in my dorm. If I discover I have a duplicate, I’ll either send one home or re-gift it to a friend. You’ll find that this not only makes your room feel lighter, but can make you feel lighter as a person as well.

Anywho, those are my top five tips for staying organized and decluttered at school! I’m about twelve weeks into my senior year, and my room is still just about as organized as it was when I first moved in. Every week or so, I go through my things and throw away what needs to go, and generally give my room a little pick-me-up. I think cleaning often for smaller amounts of time is way more enjoyable than doing one giant clean-out every season, and it feels much more practical, too. I hope my tips have helped you, and I’d love to hear some of your pieces of advice in the comments as well!

Monday, October 14 

Unfortunately, I was correct about a cold coming on this past weekend. I’m fortunate that I had already pre-written a lot of my blog posts this week, so I didn’t have to do any work today besides hitting the “upload” button. I also didn’t get any more of my research papers done- neither today or yesterday. Basically, all I’ve done for the past 48 hours is lay on the floor, sniffle, and groan about how much pain my muscles are in. I’ve already gone through the sore throat phase, and the super annoying nasal congestion seems to be almost finished, which means a cough is next, right?


I also haven’t been able to sleep very well due to being ill, but at least I had Duke to comfort me. I went to the beach yesterday with him and my mom, and it was so freaking cute to watch him roll around in the sand! Then we had beach pizza (non New-Englanders won’t understand), and finished off the night by watching The Office. 

This afternoon she brought me back to school, but on the way here we stopped at our favorite farmstand and got pumpkins and cider donuts. As I’m sure you can tell, I’m being a little lax this week on avoiding dairy products. I’m usually very strict about it, but the combination of feeling like absolute shit and celebrating being with my family kind of out-won this time.

I was going to try to get some work done this evening, but I’ll probably just end up staying in bed and watching Netflix with a box of tissues in hand! Let’s hope I’m feeling better tomorrow, because I have a public speaking class in the afternoon and I’d really like to have a voice by then.

Thursday, October 17

All classes were cancelled today due to fallen trees and power outages. The wind was really intense last night, so I was not surprised at all when I woke up this morning to that message on my phone! It ended up being perfect timing, because I was supposed to deliver a four-minute speech today in class that I was NOT feeling up for. It’s mostly because I’m still getting over my cold, and I have a bit of a gross cough right now. My voice isn’t feeling the strongest, and it definitely shows when I speak. Secondly, I’m more anxious about it than usual because my professor is really talking it up as a big deal. Whenever I am constantly reminded that something is going to be a huge part of my grade and I have to do well, that makes me extra nervous. I was planning on taking half a milligram of Ativan before my exam, as I am prescribed Ativan for anxiety attacks, but now I don’t have to. The thing about Ativan and Xanax is that they can stay in your system for up to 18 hours, and the symptoms last all day. That’s not really a problem if you like being sleepy and loopy, but for me, I could see that messing up the rest of my schedule for the day. Long story short, I don’t have to worry about that for the time being!

It’s a perfectly lovely chilly fall day, so I’m burning my favorite spiced pumpkin candle that my brother bought me a few Christmases ago. Even though it’s only mid October, I am already so excited for the holiday season and getting into festivities! 

Friday, October 18

As if having all classes yesterday wasn’t already enough, my  ̴ only class ̴ today was also cancelled. In other words, I have a four day weekend now!

To be completely honest, I was a little bummed that my Communication Research class was cancelled today. Like I’ve said before, I like doing research, and I generally do like to go to class to learn. I was also sad about not going to my Human Services class yesterday, because I find the subject matter to be really engaging. I imagine this partly has to due with the fact that I have ADHD, and if I go too long without any type of brain activity or stimulation, I get extremely bored and subsequently start a bunch of new projects. This is not a new revelation to any of you; you know me by now. I will say, I was happy not to have my public speaking class, but you already know why I feel that way! (I also have a tiny crush on one of the guys in my class, and because of that, I’m a bit self-conscious about the thought of delivering a speech in front of him).

Oh, yeah, my identity crisis. I have a crush on a guy? I don’t know what to call myself anymore. For all intents and purposes, I’m bisexual, but I’ve just reached the point where I hate labels and I want to stop over-analyzing myself and just let myself feel my feelings. 

My mother, stepfather, and grandmother are coming to campus tomorrow for Family, Friends & Alumni weekend. They’re all such amazing, wholesome people, and we always have a lovely time together. We are seeing a matinee performance of The Lion King in Boston, so I’m looking forward to sharing all about that!

Sunday, October 20

Is it just me, or is October flying by way too fast? Halloween is less than two weeks away and I haven’t even given it a thought. I’ll probably go visit my friend at Berklee on Halloweekend, and I know for a fact I’m seeing Eli on either the first or second of November!


Yesterday was such a fun day with my family in the city. We were able to see The Lion King at the Boston Opera House via discounted school tickets, so that was amazing. Not only was the show itself so impressive and beautifully executed, but the theater was stunning as well. I actually didn’t remember anything about The Lion King movie, so the story was basically new to me. If you have the chance to see it, I highly recommend!
We saw a matinee show, so it was about mid evening by the time we got back to campus. We went to Panera Bread to get some dinner, and sadly they had to hit the road after that. It was actually nice to have some time to myself after that, as I’m still a bit sick from my cold and appreciated the rest. One thing that was NOT helping is the fact that my house didn’t have any heat, and I’ve been sleeping with a winter coat on for the past few nights. I called Plant Operations and it turns out there’s no heat because some moron has a space heater (which is not allowed), and because her room has a lot of heat, it registered in the temp system that the whole house must have heat then. And thus, the heat turned off in mid October. Thankfully, that’s just been fixed, so I’m looking forward to having heat for the first time this fall! 


Coming up this week:

10/21- How I Save Money at College

10/23- Animals & Anxiety Treatment

10/25- Fall Themed Makeup Look


Wednesday, October 2

10am: I am #blessed with having mid-day classes, so it’s very rare that I have to wake up before 10 on a weekday. This is obviously awesome, because I love to sleep, but it also means I end up going to bed ridiculously late at night. Like, 2am-3am late. Anywho, I’m not a morning shower person, so the first thing I do when I wake up is wash my face, brush my teeth, and put in my contacts. Some days I put on makeup, but 75% of the time, it’s just a little concealer and eyebrow pencil for me. Today is no different.

11am: My first class today is at 11am, so I grabbed a coffee beforehand. I usually am not super hungry when I first wake up, so I’ll probably eat something small around noon. My first class today is Communication Research, which is very discussion heavy and requires a lot of focus. Nonetheless, I do make a bit of time to check my email, social media, and messages while class is taking place. I’ll also publish an article during the first half of the day, if one is scheduled to be released. 

Noon: My first class actually got out early today, so my next stop is to get lunch. Ninety percent of the time, I’ll have a sandwich and a bag of chips. Today I used a meal swipe to get an uncrustable (my crack, tbh), some kettle corn chips, and a bottle of apple juice. Now, I’m planting myself down in an empty classroom to get some writing work done. I have to schedule an interview for a magazine spread, work on my Nevin’s Farm media press story, blog (duh), and then tie up some schoolwork. I actually don’t have anything that needs to be immediately worked on, academic-wise. My next homework assignments are due next Monday, so I’m certainly not in a rush to tackle any of that. In general, Sunday is usually my buckle-down-and-do-homework day. 

2pm: My second class today, Writing for Public Relations, is 2:00-3:15. I’m currently working on two spot news stories- one is about Nevin’s Farm MSPCA, and the other is about Morale Support Animals on college campuses. This class usually goes by much faster for me than others, because I have my laptop right in front of me and I’m getting a ton of writing work done. 


3:15pm: Before my last class, I stopped by the Starbucks on campus and grabbed a snack from the fridge. Our Starbucks very rarely has this vegan chicken sandwich, so I always grab it when I see it (to be totally honest, it’s actually not that great). My microeconomics class is from 3:30-4:45, and it requires a lot of hard work for me to comprehend, so this is the energy-protein boost I need right now.

5pm: Now that I’m out of class and dying to get back to my room to lay down (I spend a lot of time walking, and I’m in the middle of PMS cramps), I’m going to hit the dining hall one more time before I stay in for the night. Tonight I’m having broccoli, roasted squash, and a bowl of cereal. As I’ve mentioned before, the vegan/vegetarian options on my campus are NOT super prime most of the time. I won’t stay at the dining hall long, and while I eat my veggies, I enjoy scrolling through my news feed and seeing what’s happening in the world. I usually don’t eat with other people, unless I make specific plans to.

We love microeconomics! (not)

5:30pm: Like I said, I don’t have any homework that needs to get done immediately, so I can cross that off my mental list of tasks. Now that I’m back in my room, the first thing I do is take out my contact lenses and wipe off any makeup I may have been wearing that day. Like I said, I got a fat load of writing work done before my PR class, so now I’m going to take a mental break and play The Sims 4 for a couple hours. The Sims is the only video game I play, and to date, I’ve locked in thousands of hours. I’m also currently in the middle of an article about The Sims, and I’m really looking forward to revealing that to you all. After I play some video games, I’ll usually just law low for the rest of the evening. I did lie down for an hour or so because like I said, my uterus is being strangled by cramps as we speak.

8pm: Some evenings, if the weather isn’t awful, I like to pop in my headphones and take a short walk around campus. I think it’s really important to take some time away from my friends, my text messages, my internet, etc., and just go for a walk to clear my mind and think about things. Lately I’ve been jamming to Taylor Swift’s newest album (I LOVE “London Boy” and “The Man”, and I also love to listen to “Perfect” by Ed Sheeran and daydream about getting married while I walk. Dorky, I know). I’m not really a big exercise-oriented person anymore, because I just don’t have the resources for it, so I make up for that by taking a nightly walk around the neighborhood. 

8:30pm: I’m a night showerer when I’m at school, so that’s my next objective. Sometimes I take super late showers (like, 11pm), but tonight I’m getting it done early so I can watch Rugrats in Paris with one of my friends. Yes, if you’re watching this in October of 2019, Rugrats in Paris is on Netflix!! Because my friend lives a few towns away, the way we watch things “together” is by pressing play in our respective homes at the same time. Then, we text about it while it’s happening, so it’s almost like we’re reacting at the same time. We’ve been doing this a lot of nights lately, but it’s usually with Cold Case Files, not animated movies.

That’s more or less my average day in a nutshell! Obviously it changes on a daily basis, but this is a pretty standard example of what my life is like. I’ll usually go to bed reaaally late, because my brain gets super active and full of ideas at night. It’s that flaming ADHD in me. Every night to fall asleep, I have to have some sort of audio playing in the background. Otherwise, my brain will be racing at 100 miles an hour and I’ll start thinking about stupid things I did five, ten years ago. Having something (or someone) to listen to distracts my mind from wandering into anxiety, and ultimately helps me focus on getting sleepy. Tonight I fell asleep listening to VSauce videos, and I was out within fifteen minutes. Goodnight, everyone! I’ll see you next week. 

Coming up next: Could Communism Work in The Sims?

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Academically, I am one of the most stress-free people I know. I always get between 8-10 hours of sleep. I rarely spend more than an hour a day on schoolwork. And yet, consistently, I am a good student who manages to turn in all of my work on time, often with high markings. 

The most interesting aspect of all of this is that I do have ADHD and learning disabilities, but instead of wrestling with it, I use it to my advantage. I realize what my limits are, and I don’t try to push myself towards objectives that will simply be a waste of time. For example, I am NOT a textbook reader. I never have been, and I never will be. Rather than sit in my room and spend four hours trying to absorb a textbook, I’ll do other work instead that I know can be easily maximized. I can write three papers in four hours, so I might as well knock that out instead.

In all my three years of college, I’ve probably spent thousands of dollars on thirty or so textbooks. Realistically, I think I’ve opened three of them in my life. I’ve never failed (or even come close to failing) a class.

If this is ringing any bells, I have an exercise for you- make a list of all your academic strengths and weaknesses. Can you do anything about your weaknesses? If yes, it might be time to buckle down and work harder. Or, do you have a disability that prevents you from excelling in a certain area? Stop sweating about it. Focus instead on what you do well, and I promise you will flourish.

Like I said, I’m not a textbook reader. I have a really hard time sitting myself down and reading something that’s simply not interesting to me. I don’t enjoy answering questions on worksheets, especially if they’re self-explanatory and sound silly to answer. And, the worst, is taking tests and exams. I do not like working under pressure in those types of environments, and having my objective knowledge tested in a subjective method has never meshed well for me.

That being said, I have my strengths. I love to write essays and find it really easy to punch them out. I can write an A-grade, five page paper in less than two hours. I’m also very comfortable in group discussions that enable me to share my thoughts, and can intuitively figure out subject matter very quickly (without reading the textbook). I am comfortable with admitting what I’m not great at, but I’m also not afraid to admit what I am good at. I believe, in general, we need to give ourselves more credit. 

Like I said, because I have figured out my learning style, I am able to excel in the majority of my classes without stressing myself out exponentially. This is one of the biggest ways I keep my stress down- I focus only on doing my best, and if I feel like a task is a waste of time or energy, I find a way around it. That’s not to say “Give up when things get hard,” rather, “When things get hard, try not to stress too much. Carry out your work in the most effective way to your health and learning style.”

I always strive to do well, but I’m not obsessed with being an A+ student. College is a short channel in my life, it doesn’t define it- so I’m not going to work myself into a panic over the small stuff. I am totally and completely happy with soaring through college, and take B’s with gratitude. I am solidly okay with being “just average”, as long as it means my happiness and my health needs are met. I could never justify pulling an all-nighter to get a perfect grade on an assignment that won’t even matter in five years.

I have an article similar in nature to this one, which deals with how I manage my time at college. As a full-time student, I take six classes, post four blog articles a week, write for my school’s lifestyle magazine, and I still have time to take care of myself and get 8 hours of sleep per night. Like I said, it’s all about priorities. If I am assigned a fifty-page textbook reading for something I could just ignore and figure out myself, that’s exactly what I’ll do. Do I feel bad about that? No. That time is now going to be spent on something else, like an essay draft I’m really looking forward to starting early. 

I hope this doesn’t come across as “slack off,” because that’s not what I want people to do. I don’t slack off- I maximize my time. Trust me when I say your mental health is more important than turning in every single assignment with flying colors, even if you feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders. Take initiative to spend time with yourself and learn who you really are, and from there, everything will become a little bit more manageable. Every once in a while, it’s so important to let yourself relax.

Coming up next: Six Controversial Foods and My Opinions on Them


Monday, September 16th 

I’ve been feeling really great and calm for the past four days or so, and I’m expecting it to last for the rest of the week. However, once I reach the 3rd week of my pills, pure havoc is definitely going to break loose on my hormones. Better appreciate the calm before the storm while I can.

I was able to sleep in pretty late today because my Monday morning class only meets once a week, and the rest is done online. I got up around 11:30 and did a full face of makeup, had a sit-down breakfast, and now I’m working on some writing before my 2:00 class. I was able to sit and chat with one of my favorite professors today, and catch her up on all of my life happenings.

Today I’m working on my book gift guide and my Fab Fit Fun review, which will be out next week. I like to push about a week in advance when writing articles, at least. I love having something to constantly look forward to, something to constantly write.  

Wednesday, September 18th

The work is starting to pick up a bit, which is good. I haven’t really been up to anything exciting, now that the initial chaos of my first week is over. I’ve definitely established my routine, and I still have extra time for self-care and adequate sleep. Maybe I’m just a fast worker, or maybe my workload just isn’t that heavy. It’s hard to say. I also feel like my temper is a bit more fiery than usual, but that comes and goes regularly. 

I’ve been thinking a lot lately that I wish I had more friends, but specifically, more older, nerdy guy friends. Being on a college campus, of course, I’m surrounded by men and women in the 18-22 age range. I know this makes me sound arrogant, but I can’t stand being around most people in that age demographic. It’s especially annoying at my particular school, where cliques are rampant and drama spreads like wildfire.

18-22 year-olds are inherently selfish, and they should be. You’re still figuring yourself out and what you want to do with your life- it should be all about you. But being selfish makes it easier to hurt other people’s feelings, willingly or not. I prefer to spend my time with older, wiser, more experienced people, who (more or less) have their immediate life figured out. I like to hang out with people who have cars, apartments, and money, who are more inclined to talk about capitalism and American politics instead of trivial matters. 

I know that this is what I prefer, because I’ve already formed these types of friendships in my young adult life. One of my best friends is a thirty-one year-old straight dude who lives in the Boston suburbs. I generally get along better with my professors than my classmates, and I’m sure many of them would attest to that. Drama really just seems to follow me when I start associating with other kids my age, especially catty girls.

I feel like it’s really not unheard of for lesbians to have more dude friends than average. I mean, what could be better than playing video games and talking about how hot girls are over a greasy bag of Burger King fries? Sounds like a pretty good gig to me.

I’m a little worried about my Micro-economics class. You may remember me saying last week that I was sure the abstract, big-picture ideas would go right over my head, and that’s exactly what’s happening. I’m trying to memorize the steps of the math, but in all honesty, I have NO idea what I’m doing. Thank goodness my professor only assigned four homework assignments for the entire semester.

Eating at the dining hall, as you can see, is not going great. I’ve been doing a lot of my own grocery shopping, as as I edit this, my order is actually on its way!

Thursday, September 19th

It’s 11:59pm, and I’m sitting cross-legged on my bed with my computer in my lap. This week in general has been pretty uneventful, but I do have some exciting updates for the future. For one thing, I am going to see The Lion King  musical with my family in about a month, per courtesy of my school’s uber-cheap tickets. I miss my mom and Mark a lot (even though he’s not my biological dad, I refer to them together as my parents), and I especially miss my dog. I don’t mention him a lot on here, but you can find pictures of Duke peppered throughout my social media!

I’m also considering joining my school’s fashion/beauty magazine, and it’s pretty much a done deal at this point. One of my classmates, who is a lovely friend, reached out to me and asked if I wanted to write for the magazine. From what she told me, the articles I would be writing are exactly the type of content I already love to put out. I’m very passionate about fashion, beauty, and lifestyle, especially when it’s creative and unconventional. I’m looking forward to this opportunity!

Like I mentioned a bit earlier, I usually refer to Mark as my dad now because I am estranged from my biological father. I’m not sure if that’s something I mentioned before on here. I obviously think it’s important to keep some parts of your life private, but I would like to open up about that more in the future if it’s something that became relevant to my viewers. Especially if there is a young man or women going through a similar broken relationship with a parent, I want to be a voice for you and share as much of my story as I can, because I think it’s important to talk about these things. Even though the damaged relationship with my father is not my fault, I still feel a lot of guilt as a result of his manipulation and gaslighting. If something tragic ever happened to him, I would probably feel responsible for being a bad daughter. It’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot, but like I said, I seldom tell people about that situation unless I feel it’s relevant or helpful. 

Mom jeans + a jacket is my new favorite lewk.

Besides that being on my mind from time to time, I’ve been staying positive lately. I’m still working on finding the best treatment for my PMDD, but it might be something I have to take care of when I go home for my next holiday break. Many of the clinics and offices in my current location are booked out until the spring, so I might as well just talk to my primary care doctor when I go home instead. Or, best case scenario, maybe I’ll adapt to my current combination birth control pills sooner than later and I won’t end up needing to add another pill into the mix. That would be ideal, because I really want to get a cocktail on my 21st birthday and I certainly can’t do that while taking an SSRI!

Coming up this week

9/23- Gift Guide: The Perfect BOOK for Everyone on Your List

9/25- Gentleman Jack: A Celebration of History and Feminism

9/27- My Hair Color History