I started having my hair professionally dyed in middle school, and since then, having colorful hair is almost a part of my identity. It’s not an exciting color at the moment, but I am planning on dyeing it a new shade before the end of the year (so drop color suggestions below!). It’s going to be a lot of work trying to compile every color I’ve ever had, but I’m going to try my best. I hope you guys enjoy seeing these old pictures of me as well, because some of them are pretty cringey! 

First of all, this is the natural texture and color of my hair (this picture is about five years old). My hair is pretty ashy in the winter- it even looks gray in some lights, but in the summer it becomes a warm, honey brown. I’ve also been #blessed with barrel curls, but now that I’ve processed my hair so much, it sadly doesn’t curl the way it used to.

Circa. 2014 | Purple Streaks


The first time I ever did anything exciting to my hair was in 8th grade, and this is the ONLY picture I have from it. My neighbor at the time was a licensed hairdresser, and she put these two purple streaks into the front of my hair. I was also really into straightening my hair at this time, because I hadn’t yet learned to love my natural curls. To complete the look, I (of course) had pencil-thin brows. I really thought I looked BOMB with that hair, though I suppose in retrospect it wasn’t that bad. I was also really into wearing teal eyeshadow and winging my liner in 8th grade, but it’s hard to tell from this picture. Maybe someday I’ll recreate my old middle school makeup routine, so you can have an idea of what I might have looked like.

December 2015-April 2016 | Dark Brown


The winter of my freshman year is when my mom finally let me dye my whole head, but only a natural color. I decided to go with a dark brown, which did look lovely at the time, but the light-brown roots growing in was NOT a look. I was also really into penciling my eyebrows super dark, as this was well before “instagram brows” really took off. The bottom right picture is me at my brother’s graduation, and you can really see how different we look. Looking back, I really liked this color on me. I dyed it dark brown for a while, too, so I have a ton of pictures from this age. 

April 2016-August 2016 | Teal

Eli!! One of my all-time favorite pictures is the one on the top right. It’s cropped, but the full image is the two of us sitting on the beach, singing and playing the ukulele.

In April of my sophomore year, I decided I wanted to dye my hair a light, minty teal. This was around the time Kylie Jenner wore a lot of wigs, so I remember being really inspired by her. I will say, this process DESTROYED my hair. Dyeing my hair dark brown for so long, and then suddenly aggressively bleaching it was NOT good for it, but it did look cute. Teal hair, to this day, is my favorite color I’ve ever had. As you can see, my curls lost their bounce and turned into waves during this time. My hair literally felt like straw, but I LOVED this look. Summer 2016 was a lot of fun for me; I had a solid group of friends, and I was dating a popular football player (this was obviously way before I came out as a lesbian). I felt really pretty in these pictures.

August 2016-December 2016 | Black


The next color I dyed my hair was jet-black, because I was really into the gothic subculture and icons like Siouxsie Sioux. My life had changed a lot from the summer, because I lost all of the things things that had made it fun. I remember the only person who felt like a true friend was Eli, and to this day, we are still good friends. You’ll notice Eli in a lot of old pictures with me, because he has been my bestie and my rock since 2015. I remember one time I was on a beach date that I HATED being on, so I discreetly called Eli and he came to pick me up. I snuck away from the date (so mean, I know), and we went to McDonalds to get milkshakes. That was a really good day. Anyway, back to my hair. Adding black dye over the bleach actually strengthened my hair, and I managed to get some of my natural curl back. You can see my natural texture in my senior portrait, top right. Bottom right is my superlative picture- I won “most changed since 8th grade.” 

December 2016-April 2017 | Black, Short

A girl I went to high school with took these professional pictures of me, which you’ll see scattered throughout this page. Her name is Taylor Bolduc, and she’s a great photographer!

I don’t have any good pictures from this time, but between December of 2016 and April of the following year, I kept my hair short and black. This was around the time I began to think more in depth about my sexuality -my boyfriend at the time was bisexual, and I wondered if I was, too. I was in that relationship from October of 2016 to April of 2017. One of the reasons I chopped my hair off in April was because I was so distraught over the end of that relationship- I did NOT see it coming at all, and I definitely did not handle it well. Cutting off all my hair was very liberating for me. The months after that were a blur of chaos and depression, but eventually, I did come out of it. This all took place after I had been diagnosed with PMDD, so at least I knew my hormones partly contributed to it. I got on escitalopram (Lexapro) in 2016, and stayed on it until about a month ago.

April 2017-May 2017 | Brown, Pixie Cut


Like I said, I chopped off all of my hair after that really hard breakup (but honestly, who hasn’t done something drastic to their hair after a breakup?). All of the black had grown out by this point, but I didn’t keep it brown for long. Within this one-month time block, I took a trip to Minnesota to see Eli, as that’s where he attends college. The top left picture is me at a gay club called The Gay 90s, which is located in downtown Minneapolis. We had a marvelous time together that weekend, and I have so many fond memories. We also visited an IKEA store, and I remember Eli made me laugh so hard, I actually bruised one of my ribs from trying to hold it in. It was a really great time.

May 2017-October 2017 | Pink, Pixie Cut


Around the time I graduated from high school, I dyed my hair a bright, fuchsia pink. I actually didn’t love it as much as I thought I would, and I won’t lie, it faded to a really ugly color. By the end of the summer, it was kind of a brassy orange color, and I looked just like Annie the orphan. I will say though, my hair was super curly and healthy during this time. Look at how amazing those curls were! This was my last summer home before college, and I spent a lot of time with Eli. Sadly, that was the last summer he came home for break, and now he mainly stays in Minnesota full-time. 


October 2017-January 2018 | Blue

My scalp, neck, and hands were stained FOR A WEEK. Ah, college.

The WORST MISTAKE I EVER MADE came in October, when I let a friend of mine dye my hair dark blue. She actually did a really good job, but the dye was not permanent and it faded to a horrendous poopy color after just a few weeks. I didn’t have a chance to get into a salon until January, and thankfully, I don’t have many pictures of my hair during this time. This was also around the time I was starting to become comfortable with the fact that I liked girls, and I went on a lot of dates with beautiful ladies around this time. I also had a really rich friend around this time, and she always took me out to Target and the mall and The Cheesecake Factory around this time. I know that probably doesn’t sound too exciting, but when you spend all your time on an isolated college campus, it’s so fun to get out and do things. I was wearing a lot of button-downs and sweaters around this time, and she always joked that I looked like Ellen DeGeneres.  

January 2018-April 2019 | Brown

I’m so happy in the top left picture because I was standing next to an Edward Hopper painting. He’s my favorite artist, and I was having an ultimate fan girl moment.

Like I said, I was able to get to a salon over my winter recession. This is around the time I started my blog and started doing my pinup thing, which lasted for a REALLY long time (about a year, as you can see). I loved wearing those vintage dresses and putting my hair in victory rolls, and I think that I looked really good during this period. My medication was pretty regulated by this time, and I felt confident and happy. I’m sure my happiness is visible from these pictures, and I love to look back and them. I’ve still kept a lot of the clothes, and sometimes I like to take them out and reflect on that happy summer I spent in petticoats and heels.

You can see in the bottom right what I mean about the sun lightening up my hair, especially the ends.

April 2019-August 2019 | Teal

Sometimes I think about shaving my eyebrows again. I was able to create a lot of very different, diverse looks that way.

Last April, after really missing my teal hair (because, like I said, it’s my favorite), I went to a salon and had it dyed again. It felt much healthier this time, because my hair had been left alone for so long, and the bleach wasn’t as damaging. I had a lot of fun doing avante-garde makeup looks at this time, because I was still shaving off my eyebrows pretty regularly. I was still kind of keeping up the vintage thing, but then my style became thotty for a hot minute, and then, my current style, futch. I more or less had my homosexual awakening at this time, and started getting into a lot of gay musicians, such as k.d. Lang and LP. This heavily influenced my next hair change, as you are about to see. 

August 2019-Present | Brown, Pixie Cut, Shaved


The bottom right before is the most updated picture I have of myself. I grew out my eyebrows again, and cut my hair really short (featuring a really dope undercut, which I’m obsessed with). I still love doing crazy makeup looks, but I don’t have as much time anymore, being a senior in college. I also could only bring so much makeup to college, and sadly, I had to leave a lot of my favorite things back home. I’m feeling pretty good right now- it was a challenging summer, but I’m adjusting really well to my final school year. I’ll probably dye my hair another crazy color before the end of the year, but I haven’t decided which one yet. I haven’t done a bright yellow yet, so maybe that’s what’s next on the agenda. 😉

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I’m not a health or lifestyle guru by any means, but through trial and error, I’ve finally found a summer morning routine that resonates well with me. This routine is going to be much different than my college morning routine, so if you’re interested in that, I’ll leave the link to that article at the bottom of the page!


Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays are the mornings I start off by going to the gym. I usually try to head there about twenty minutes after waking up, which can be kind of late, considering I’m out of school now. I don’t make breakfast until after my morning workout, but to hold me over until then, I’ll bring a nut bar with me. If you’re looking for a super organic, minimal-ingredient morning nut bar, I highly recommend any and all products by Larabar. The one I’m eating this morning has only two ingredients- cashews and dates.

I’m lucky enough to have a gym in my apartment building, so rain or shine, I make it a priority to go. I think of exercising as a way of pampering your body, and afterwards, I feel pretty amazing, energized, and ready to be productive (or not) for the rest of my day. If you, like me, are also a beginner at exercising, I recommend just running on the treadmill for an hour a few days a week. That’s what I’m doing- I’m not drastically trying to lose weight, but I would like to feel confident in a crop top this summer. So cardio is my go-to at the moment, and I try not to push myself too hard.


I’m grateful to be home from college because it means I have access to adequate, healthy food again- and breakfast is my favorite meal of the day to cook. My mom recently bought a plethora of avocados, so in my attempts to eat them all before they go bad, I’ve been making a shitload of avocado toast. I also like to make a smoothie and throw in all of the produce I wouldn’t normally just grab and eat straight- like spinach, pineapple, and apples. If you also find that you don’t usually reach for fruit and veggies when you want a snack, I recommend tossing it into a morning smoothie. It’s a great way to get those pesky leafy greens out of the way, and trust me, I will not eat spinach unless it’s in a smoothie. I also have my black coffee, of course, because I’ll effectively turn into a monster without it.



I think hopping into the shower after a workout is one of the nicest feelings in the world. My shower routine isn’t very exciting (does anyone have an exciting shower routine?), but I do have a couple of products to mention that I’ve been loving lately. First of all, as a curly-haired girl, this shampoo by Biolace changed my damn life. Seriously. I don’t think my hair has ever been this soft. In fact, my hair is so soft, it slips out of a ponytail every time I try to wear one. Because my hair is bleached and color-treated, it’s really important to me that my hair looks (and feels) as healthy as possible. This shampoo and and the conditioner have been doing that job so flawlessly, I actually look forward to washing my hair on Sunday nights. (I only get my hair wet and wash it once a week, which sounds nasty, but trust me, my hair feels incredible). Additionally, I’ve been using the CeraVe foaming facial cleanser for literal years now, so that’s another staple in my routine that I like to mention. I also use it to shave my eyebrows, which, if you didn’t know, I do quite regularly.

Putting on my makeup may very well be one of my favorite parts of the day. I don’t think I’m incredible at makeup, but I’ve been doing it since middle school, so I think I’m at least okay at this point. Now that I’ve been wearing more black, I’ve been extra-into extremely bright eyeshadow looks. The makeup look I did today is very colorful and gay, which is exactly what I wanted.


It’s not really morning anymore by this point, so I can’t always predict what the rest of the day will look like. A normal afternoon will entail me writing articles, editing particles, posting articles, checking my email…usually productive, blog-y things like that. Sometimes I put on a full face of makeup and just dedicate the rest of my day to playing The Sims. Whatever it is I’m doing, I always try to give it everything I’ve got and totally pour all my attention into it. I leave my house too, of course, but considering I don’t have a car…there aren’t many places I can go. The good news is, I just applied to volunteer in the barn at an animal shelter with my mom, so I’ll hopefully have a lot of new blogging/vlogging material to share once I get started with that!

My COLLEGE Morning Routine: 

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I’m definitely the sort of person who finds a particular product they like, sticks with it, and buys it repeatedly until something new comes along. That’s not to say I don’t like trying new things, but if something is working for me, why not continue using it?

With that being said, I go through bottles and tubes almost weekly, especially when it comes to makeup and beauty products. These are the products that have worked so well for me, I have to stock up on them again and again. Hopefully, you’ll find one or two things that resonate with you as well!

One of my favorite cleansers of all time is this Kale Detox Face Wash by Pacifica. I wouldn’t be surprised if I’ve mentioned it before, because it’s been one of my favorites for a long time. Delicious-smelling face wash isn’t a must for me, but it’s definitely a benefit- and this face wash smells like a fresh fruit smoothie. I aim to wash my face at least twice a day, so this product certainly dwindles down fast. Hey, Pacifica, can you make me a thirty-two liter bottle of this stuff?


Something I’ve been trying to prioritize more in the past few months is using organic, environmental-friendly products on my face and body. My mom actually introduced me to this vegan deodorant cream by Lumē, and I’ve been loving it ever since. I’ve struggled with natural deodorants in the past, because I feel like most of them aren’t strong enough, but this one actually really works. This deodorant contains lavender and clary sage essential oils, so it smells super sweet, and it’s even safe enough to also use on your lady bits. One bottle of this stuff also has a rather long shelf life- I’ve managed to make this deodorant last about two and a half months! 


I’ve bought a lot of foundation in my life, but the only one I’ve ever repurchased is the Becca Cosmetics Ultimate Coverage 24 Hour Foundation. I’ve struggled with finding the perfect foundation in the past- they’re usually either too drying, too dark for my skintone, or simply too sheer for my taste. I’ve loved using the Becca foundation for the past few months because it counteracts every problem I could ever have. The foundation is creamy and full coverage, and the brand itself is cruelty-free, which I absolutely must have in my makeup products. In regards to other makeup products, I’ve also had to stock up on more Tarte Shape Tape Concealer. I swear, the uses for this stuff are everlasting, so it’s no wonder I run out of a single bottle after only a month and a half. The only downside to both of these products is that they’re a bit on the pricier side, but it makes sense, considering how advantageous they are.


Admittedly, I used to be one of those people who hardly ever cleaned their makeup brushes. It’s actually kind of amazing, the difference you can see in your makeup application based on how often you clean your brushes. It can also, more than anything, be a health hazard for your eyes if you neglect to clean your beauty brushes, as they can become a breeding ground for bacteria. Something I’ve gone through incredibly fast the past few months is the IT Cosmetics Brush Bath- a spray that effectively and quickly cleans your makeup brushes. I always spritz my brushes with the brush bath before I use them, and after rubbing them with a cloth or towel, they literally look good as new. I also really enjoy the smell of this product- it’s like a citrus-y, fruity, almost lavender-scented product. Cleaning brushes is no longer a chore!


Being a full-time college student, I don’t have many opportunities to immerse myself in the luxury of bubble baths. That being said, when I am home from college, I definitely like to go overboard with as many baths as I can. Look, I know baths don’t actually make you cleaner or more hygenic, but they feel so damn good on the muscles. There are few feelings that compare to submerging yourself in a boiling tub of hot, fragrant water. I tend to go back and forth with using products from Lush and Bath & Body Works, especially the 2018 holiday scents released by the latter. My favorite bubble bath at the moment is Twisted Peppermint; it’s the only bubble bath scent I haven’t gotten tired of yet. I’ve already nearly emptied the bottle, and yet, I’m still considering running back to Bath & Body Works to stock up again. I like my baths to feel luxurious, and Twisted Peppermint definitely delivers that rich, sweet, dessert-like bubbly goodness. Of course, as tempted as you may be, don’t actually eat it. I refuse to allow bubble bath to become the next tide pod fiasco.

I’m planning on ordering some new products from Hush later in the month, so hopefully around springtime, I will have some new items to review. Let me know if you’ve tried any of the products I mentioned today, and if you share a similar love for them!

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Not to sound arrogant, but almost every day, I get complimented on my hair from a stranger. I’m always happy to receive this recognition- after all, I do take pride in putting effort into my appearance. There are so many ways to style vintage hair, and I am by no means an expert, but I have picked up a fair amount of tips and tricks. If you are interested in learning some simple vintage hairstyles for school, work, or fancy events, look no further!

No matter which hairstyle I chose to wear, I always start with naturally-dried hair. My natural hair texture is very curly, so I always take a shower before bed, brush my wet hair, and tie it into a loose ponytail. When I brush my hair out in the morning, I am left with smooth, softly-curled, and slightly-damp hair. For me personally, this is the best texture for me to style my hair with.


One of the first retro hairstyles I perfected (err, trying to perfect) is victory rolls. This hairstyle dates all the way back to the 1940s, when women wore their hair in this style in celebration of the World War II victory. It can be a little tricky at first, but once you get the rhythm, it’s marvelously simple. The first thing I like to do is section out the hair I will not be using, and tie it into a ponytail to get it out of the way. Then, because my hair is generally very frizzy and dry, I smooth some facial moisturizer through the strands to help them clump together. The moisturizer I use is by CeraVe. If you don’t have dry hair, you can just use hairspray for this step.


Once your hair is moisturized, take a chunk of hair for the first victory roll and begin rolling it in the shape of an inward curl. This is usually the trickiest part, so don’t be discouraged if you don’t get it right the first few times! Once the roll reaches the top of your head, lay it flat against your head and pin it down with as many bobby pins as you’d like. If you want additional volume in your roll, you can brush out your hair with a teasing comb before you begin rolling. This method can help you achieve a more 50s, cartoonish-style roll. Do the same method on the other side of your head with the remaining hair, coat it with hairspray, and your victory rolls are done! You can style the rest of your hair however you like, but I prefer to keep mine down or secured in a hair net.


This brings me to my next vintage hair tip: hair nets are your new best friend. Although they are delicate, you can reuse them if you keep them clean and handle them carefully. I purchased a pack of twenty hair nets on amazon for about seven dollars, and I’m planning on the entire pack lasting me at least a year. Make sure you get a hairnet color that matches your actual hair color as closely as possible, so that the net is less visible. After I brush out my hair in the morning, I will usually tuck my hair into a hair net and secure it promptly with a handful of bobby pins. This gives the hair a more uniform, clean look, and prevents frizziness and flyaways. Most of the time, it’s hard to even see the hair net unless you look really closely! Ever since I discovered this method, I have utilized it almost every day to keep hair out of my face and keep my curls in order.


Bumper bangs, it seems, have earned a reputation for looking difficult to execute, yet so easy to actually do yourself. This hairstyle moves out of the 1940s era and into the 1950s, when pinup girls utilized this beautiful ‘do the most. In order to get the perfect bumper bangs, I cut a hair donut in half (you can get these at any beauty supply store), so that it becomes a rod rather than a circle. Then, I pin the tips of my hair to the rod and start rolling it inwards towards my forehead. Once you get to the top, pin it securely with bobby pins to ensure the bangs don’t fall out. This is one of my favorite hairstyles because it only takes 3-5 minutes to do, and it’s also very easy to sleep on! Most nights, I’ll roll my bumper bangs after I take my nightly shower, spritz it with hairspray, and sleep on it. When you wake up the next morning, your hair will already be good to go. One thing I will say- it’s difficult to apply foundation on your forehead once you apply bumper bangs, so get used to having a bare forehead! (That, or apply foundation before you do your hair.)

Though the victory rolls may take a little bit of practice to perfect, all of these hairstyles are ultimately very simple to execute, and always tend to garnish lots of attention from strangers. If you do try any of these fabulous hairstyles, tag me in your pictures so I can see them!

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