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It’s no secret I’ve been very open about my struggles with insomnia and restful sleep here on the blog. There are a lot of factors behind my sleep issues: anxiety, periods, and stress from work, but sometimes, you’re just going to have a rough night of sleep for no reason. If any of these struggles resonate with you as well, or if you also deal with insomnia from time to time, I hope this article gives you some insight or inspiration! Obviously I am not a doctor or a professional, but I do feel like I have built up some helpful tricks and coping mechanisms over time.

Create associations with sleep. Have you heard of the theory of Pavlov’s dog? Basically, he trained his dogs to associate hearing a bell ring with getting food, so that eventually every time they heard the bell, they would automatically salivate with anticipation for food. You can train your own mind to do the same thing with getting sleepy! For example, every evening when I’m getting ready for bed, I warm up a heating pad and light an apple candle. Because my brain has learned to associate those things with sleep, I now naturally start to get very tired when I smell my candle and feel the heat of the pad on my chest. You can find your own little rituals and habits to associate with sleep- maybe for you that’s listening to specific music, spraying a certain room spray, or drinking herbal tea.

Find a vitamin/medicine combo that works for you. I try to look at prescription sleep medication as a last resort because taking it for too long can become habit-forming, and that won’t be good for your health in the long run. However, if you are looking for something over-the-counter to take that won’t be habit-forming, I have a couple of recommendations. First of all, melatonin is always a safe bet. It’s safe, reliable, and highly recommended from every doctor I’ve ever spoken to. That being said, you may have to give it a few nights to work. I’ve been taking melatonin every night for the past six months, and it’s been working wonders for me. If I’m having a really rough night, or if it’s imperative that I get a good night’s sleep, I will take a unisom tablet as well. You don’t need a prescription to buy unisom, and it’s also non-habit-forming. 

Maintain a consistent nighttime routine. Because I usually get up at the same time every morning, it just makes sense that I should go to bed at the same time, too. Even on the weekends, when I don’t have to be up early, I still try to get up and moving around 8 o’clock or so. Doing so can help train your mind to have a more consistent sleeping schedule, and thus, make falling asleep easier. As I mentioned earlier as well, I also tend to go through the same motions every night to instill a sense of routine in my body, such as with the candle and the heating pad. Of course, make sure you blow out your candle before you fall asleep if you choose to do that! 

Don’t force yourself to sleep if you’re restless. Honestly, forcing yourself to try to sleep when you’re not sleepy is one of the worst things you can do. In most scenarios, all that’s going to happen is that you’re just going to get frustrated and have even more trouble dozing off. If you’re having trouble sleeping, change your goal from falling asleep to simply relaxing so you can take some of that stress off of yourself. Read a book, listen to a podcast, or even watch some tv to take your mind off things. Eventually, you’ll just get sleepy again and you should have an easier time going back to bed. 

Listen to audio. This sort of ties into the “don’t force yourself to sleep thing,” but listening to audio when you’re falling asleep can be a great way to distract your mind. My personal favorite thing to listen to before bed is Vsauce videos, because they’re interesting but not too stimulating that I can’t fall asleep. Nathaniel, on the other hand, does not like listening to Vsauce before bed because he “gets too interested in the videos.” When we’re together, we like to compromise by listening to the podcast 36 From the Vault, which is a podcast about the Grateful Dead. Regardless of what audio I have going in the background, it’s just helpful for me to hear anything to keep my mind occupied.

Anyway, those are my tips for falling *and staying* asleep. Like I said, I’m not a doctor or anything, but these are tips that have worked for me and I hope you find some solace in them as well! Sleep tight.

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Most of you know by now that I’m a pretty open book about my medication and supplement intake. I think it’s great, from a mental health activist’s perspective, to be transparent about what works for you and what doesn’t work for you. Maybe a reader will be able to find relatability through me, or maybe I’ll inspire someone to get in touch with their own doctor about their own options for medications and supplements.

With that being said, I want to put out a disclaimer and say I am not trying to inform anybody about making medical decisions or sway anyone to act a certain way. I’m not a doctor – this is just what has worked for me personally, so that I can feel my very best and put my best foot forward. You should do what feels best for you as well, regardless of what other people say. Don’t let me sway you into changing your entire health regime! With that out of the way, let’s get into it.


Calcium, Magnesium, and Zinc | CVS | Bone & Immune Health

Out of everything on this list, I’ve definitely been taking this supplement for the longest. I started taking it because I was waking up in the middle of the night with terrible muscle spasms, also known as a “Charley horse,” and my mom recommended I take this to stop them from happening. Needless to say, it worked, and I’ve been taking it ever since! The reason this combination works is because the calcium helps your body to bind proteins, meaning you’ll endure less spasms and cramps. It’s certainly working well for me, and I also haven’t broken a bone yet, so I’m feeling good about my calcium intake.


Unisom | CVS | Sleep Aid

I started taking Unisom after I developed severe insomnia this past November. As I’ve said in past articles, Unisom and melatonin have both been extremely crucial in my recovery from the insomnia spell I endured. About an hour after I take this pill, I am immediately hit with a wave of sleepiness. It’s also the good kind of sleepiness- not the kind you feel when you’re lethargic and fatigued. Does “good sleepiness” make sense to any of you or is this just a me thing? Nonetheless, it’s helped me tremendously, and I take this every night with my usual supplements.


Melatonin | Natrol | Sleep Aid

Melatonin is another sleep aid I take on the nightly to ensure I am able to get enough rest. I like this particular brand because the melatonin actually melts in your mouth, so you don’t have to swallow a giant pill or take it with any water. It also tastes like strawberries, which is an added bonus. An important thing to add about melatonin is that it takes time to get into your cycle and could take several days to start working. Once you’ve established the system in your body, however, it starts to work wonders. Now that I’ve established melatonin in my cycle, I average about 8 hours of sleep per night.


Multi For Her (with Omega 3) | Nature Made | Energy Conversion

Because I am a vegetarian, I try to make up for as many vitamins and minerals as possible through the form of supplements. These dietary gummies have loads of healthy benefits, including 60mg of Omega-3. Omega 3 is important for managing heart health, muscles, and maintaining a healthy brain. Additionally, this type of Omega 3 is suitable for plant eaters like me, because the nutrient is derived from nuts and seeds instead of fish. Also, they’re sugar-coated and they taste delicious, so I look forward to taking my multi gummies every night!


THC Oil | Rev Clinics | Sleep Aid & Anxiety Relief

Last but certainly not least, I take .50 ML of THC oil under my tongue every night to help me improve my sleep and anxiety. I’ve never smoked marijuana because it’s just not my thing, but I’ve come around to THC and CBD oil products to help me manage both my physical and mental health. Similarly to melatonin, you may need to build up THC in your system and make it a routine part of your life for it to work, but once it does, it works beautifully. This type of oil doesn’t get you high, but it does help promote relaxation and well-being in your body. Just make sure you’re purchasing it in a legal, safe way, depending on where you live!


Anyway, that’s everything I take for supplements on a nightly basis. I also take escitalopram and birth control, but I didn’t include those in the article since they’re not really nutritional supplements. I always joke that I feel a little bit like Melman from Madagascar with all his different vials and medications. We’re also both hypochondriacs, so it’s a fitting analogy. Like I said before, I don’t want to inform anybody of what medical decisions they should make- this is just what I personally do. Nonetheless, I hope you enjoyed this article and found it informative!

Monday, December 9

Hi everyone, hope you’re doing well! I’m personally in a very good mood this morning, and I’m especially happy because I’ve been able to sleep pretty decently these past few days. As some of you may know, I normally have extremely severe and debilitating insomnia while I’m at school. The fact that I’ve been able to sleep pretty well these past few days is amazing, so here’s what I’ve been trying that seems to work:

First of all, I move my phone to the other side of the room while I sleep. I used to always have my phone nearby so I could listen to ASMR or Bob Ross while I dozed off, but doing so also meant that I would ALWAYS check the clock throughout the night. Recently, though, my phone charger has started acting up because it’s so ancient, and the only thing that keeps it consistently charging is if I absolutely do not touch it. For that reason, I started plugging it in on the other side of the room, and now I sleep MUCH better. I’d always heard that moving your phone farther away could help with sleep, and gosh, does it work!

Additionally, I’ve stopped putting pressure on myself to get into bed insanely early. Back when I was only averaging about 2 hours of sleep per night, I was so exhausted, I would literally crawl into bed at 7:30pm, even if I wasn’t feeling sleepy yet. Doing so may sound like a good idea, but I think it actually made me sleep less. Now, I don’t even think about getting into bed until I’m actually sleepy, which is usually around 10pm or 11pm. Instead of rolling around in bed for four hours like I used to, I am now able to fall asleep pretty quickly because I don’t put “pressure” on myself to sleep, if that makes sense. 

The other thing that has been working for me is to take .5 mL of THC oil under my tongue every night. THC itself isn’t specifically for sleep, of course, but it does help me to feel very relaxed before bedtime. On top of THC, I also take 25mg of melatonin, a unisom pill, and a few other wellness supplements. I think the combination of all of these things has really improved both my ability to fall asleep, and the quality of my sleep itself. I’m definitely having more vivid dreams as well, which I believe is a sign that I am having a restful sleep.

Anyway, those are the things that have been helping me lately. It’s actually kind of amazing how drastically my sleep has improved, so hopefully things stay that way. I’ve also been listening to episodes of Mind Field on my laptop to help me focus on sleep, but I keep my laptop on the other side of the room as well and simply listen to the audio. If you also have problems with sleeping, hopefully some of these tips will be useful to you! Let me know if anything works. 


Wednesday, December 11

I’m almost to the end of my last week of classes, and I’m so excited to be back home this weekend! Like I said before, I do have to come back to my school next week to take one exam, but that should be painless and done with quickly. I’m trying not to think about it too much.

Anyway, just like last week, I’ve been extremely busy. Yesterday I was off campus for most of the day taking care of interviews and work for my internship search, so that was really rewarding. I’ve discovered some really amazing organizations through my internship search, and I’m seriously looking forward to my spring semester and what the future may hold. I feel like “adulting” is coming together nicely. 

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Anyway, it’s the middle of the day now, and my plans are to have a quick lunch before my 3:30 Microeconomics class. Math and economics have never been my strong suit, so I’m not looking forward to either the class or the exam next week, but I’ll pull through nonetheless. I’ll be happy to never think about microeconomics and oligopoly ever again after this semester. 


Thursday, December 12

I hope you’re all having a peaceful, happy week! I can imagine many people are having the opposite, as it’s finals week for many students and the workload is stacked high. I’m actually holding out pretty well; I’m definitely very good at managing my time and getting things done quickly. I actually got all of my final school work done yesterday, so I spent today running all over campus trying to tie up the loose ends for my direct study capstone. I also held a meeting for the Analog social media team, and that was really productive and positive. We got some brainstorming done for January 2020, including potential story ideas. I’m doing a story about a small musician right now, and I’m thinking about emailing the Museum of Fine Arts for a story about the black history exhibit coming next month. Exciting stuff!

Monday, November 25

Good morning, everybody! I hope you’re all having a great day. I’m looking forward to a short week; tomorrow is my last day of classes before Thanksgiving break. Then, I come back for two weeks, and I’m done for the semester on December 14! Very exciting stuff.

I’m especially happy today because I got a lot of work done with my advisor this morning. We decided that Analog, the new publication I started, is going to be my capstone (for those of you who don’t know, my capstone is basically my big senior research project). So spring 2020 is going to be all about developing Analog, and managing some great content on there. With that being said, I’m going to start posting twice a week instead of thrice a week on The Diplomat’s Digest starting in January, because I’m going to have my hands quite full as it is. We also got some work done for my internship search, and I’ve started filling out forms for my graduation ceremony. So that’s all been very eventful.

I’m just finishing up my morning black coffee; next I’m going to print out some school forms and work on my writing projects until my 2pm class. It feels surreal that the semester is almost over, doesn’t it?


Wednesday, November 27

With the end of the semester in sight, I’ve been running around like a headless chicken trying to get all my work, academics, and projects wrapped up. I’m pursuing a directed study capstone, which means I’m going to be working completely independently on my final senior project. I’ve also been doing a lot of applying, interviewing, and researching for my spring internship. I’ve discovered some really interesting organizations, and I would be truly happy to work for any of them. I’ve never had a “big girl” job like this before, so I’m really excited about the prospect of having an internship. Many of them are looking for a person who can juggle multiple tasks at once, and that’s definitely my specialty, if I do say so myself.

Additionally, Eli is home for Thanksgiving and I’m SO excited to see him. We’re probably going to hang out tonight, and maybe take Duke for a walk downtown. I don’t get to see him very often, so I cherish the time that we spend together.

Speaking of Duke, he just came in from his afternoon walk, so I’m going to go cuddle him now!


Friday, November 29

To those who celebrate, I hope you all had a safe, happy Thanksgiving! I had a perfectly lovely time with my family. My mom and I spent most of the day cooking in the kitchen, which was a great bonding experience for us. The meal was also delicious, and my apple pie came out amazing. It was a very low-key, relaxing holiday, and I’m grateful that I was able to spend it with the people I love.

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My mom and Cooper being absolute angels!

Wednesday night was also a ball. Eli and I went to Olive Garden and spent some quality time together. We talked about how much we’ve changed since high school; I told Eli I found him to be more confident, and he said something along the lines of me being more comfortable with myself. I also asked my mom how I’ve changed since high school, and she said I’m more “reasonable.” I’d have to agree with both of those things.

My sleep schedule has improved a lot since being home, by the way. There’s something about sleeping in a big, comfy bed with my dog and some fresh-smelling sheets that always puts me to sleep instantly. Right now, Duke is sleeping by my feet while I write this. He’s had an exciting couple of days, too, rolling around with Cooper and playing hide-and-seek with me. We’re both a bit tired from all the festivities, so I’m happy to be doing some work in bed with him. I already had my morning coffee, but some wake-up tea might be in order as well.


Saturday, November 30

Thanksgiving break has been absolutely lovely so far; I’m already looking forward to coming back home for winter break in two weeks. Today has been a very relaxing, low-key day, and I’ve spent the entire time by myself (an introvert’s dream!). I’ve primarily been taking care of Duke, because my mom is up in Maine with my stepdad. Today I cleaned most of the house for my mom, scrubbing and vacuuming and all the such. Now the house is sparkling clean, and I’ve got the winter candles burning while I enjoy a cup of tea. By the way, Winter Wake Up tea from Trader Joe’s is AMAZING, and I highly recommend it.

For those of you wondering how my anxiety/insomnia is, both have greatly improved over the course of the last few weeks. I’d say the escitalopram is definitely back in my system and keeping me pretty calm, so that’s been very helpful. The insomnia is still a bit of a bother, but I can usually get about 4-5 hours of sleep when I’m at school. When I’m home, however, I sleep fabulously. These past few nights, I’ve been hitting the sack at 9:30pm and sleeping straight through 8am. It’s such a luxury!

My mom should be home in an hour or two; around the same time my old friends Mara and Eli are coming to hang out for a night of hot chocolate and Christmas movies. It’s never too early for the holiday spirit, as I say 🙂

Monday, November 11

Today is Veteran’s Day, which means no classes. I am grateful for the three-day weekend, because my anxiety is still in rough shape and I’m in no condition to be in class as it is. I’ve talked about this odd panic spell I’m in a little bit, but I’ll give you the full story in case you’re confused/out of the loop.

About two weeks ago, I started to have some problems sleeping. I didn’t particularly feel super anxious at the time, but I was restless and frustrated with the insomnia. Then, throughout the rest of the week (probably due to sleep deprivation) I started to feel really…wonky. Crying, panicky, nervous, irritated, generally just “off” and “disconnected.” These are all very common symptoms of PMDD and GAD, so I was familiar with the feeling and tried to remind myself I’d be feeling back to normal soon.

I felt briefly fine when I went home for four days so I could completely recuperate, but it was basically hell again when I got back to school that weekend. Slowly, day by day, my anxiety would just sink worse and worse, my crying would intensify, and my overall feeling of “offness” and dread was seriously starting to interfere. These past few nights, I’ve been running on 4-5 hours of sleep, usually interrupted by horrific anxiety attacks, nausea, and even painful legs. It’s hard to get rest when your legs are killing you every night and you’re throwing up into your trashcan, all because of anxiety.

I’d like to make a very resounding note that this is anxiety, NOT depression. I’m not feeling emotionally distraught or hopeless or anything dangerous- I’m just extremely anxious and, as a result, unstabilized. With that being said, I’m not in any kind of danger (or a danger to anyone else), and I am trying my very best to take constructive steps in the right direction. This particular weekend has been a bit rough in particular- I was essentially bedbound today- but now I’m feeling a bit stronger and willing myself to set healthy goals for myself.

The first thing I did was reach out to my college’s counseling program to set up a therapy appointment. Even though my body seems to be having a physical panic reaction that a therapist likely can’t fix, I still think it will be helpful to talk to one and learn some insight. So I’m looking forward to that. 

I’ve also resumed taking escitalopram, or Lexapro, at 10mg per day. The medication may take a while to kick in, but I should be feeling at least a little less edgy by the end of the week. I also have my Ativan prescription, which I am utilizing in the absolute most panic emergencies.

Furthermore, I’ve been spending a lot of time with my friends and loved ones to have an extra source of support and reassurance. My mom has been an absolute angel, bringing my medicines and listening to me vent and cry. Eli and Lily, my good friends, have given me so much comfort and great advice! One thing in particular I love Eli said was along the lines of this: “You should not feel guilty about reaching out for help, so don’t be afraid to advocate for yourself.”

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By the way, I dyed my hair blonde!

Eli is absolutely right. I have to advocate for myself and my health, because no one else will. I am going to set a concrete goal to go to all of my classes this week, register for my spring courses, and meeting all of my important academic commitments. Right now, that’s my biggest goal- just to get through the week academically.

I’ve already broadcasted to my friends via social media that my anxiety and panic is basically holding me hostage this week, and I’m going to need some extra space and distance to keep myself in check (unless I reach out to them first, such as Eli or Lily). I’m usually happy to help people with their problems and listen to them vent, but right now, I need to detach from that and spend some time taking care of me.

The past two weeks have been some of the hardest of my life, purely because of my anxiety. Like I said, I am not depressed or in a dangerous place- I’m just literally hinged and bedbound by my extremely intense panic. I don’t know why my anxiety has suddenly sparked to badly, but I’m going to do my very best to be strong. With any hurdle in life, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel, and I know this anxiety spell will pass soon!

 


Tuesday, November 12

It’s currently mid afternoon, and all of my classes are finished for the day. I wanted to jot down some quick updates about my anxiety, and how I’m holding up now that classes have resumed.

In general, I’m doing pretty okay right now. My anxiety is still higher than usual, but it’s not bad enough that I’m crying, bedbound, and throwing up. So I’d say that’s definitely an improvement. I can also go a few minutes without thinking about my anxiety, so I’m proud of that. 

In regards to sleep patterns, I’m still in a pretty tedious place. I felt pretty calm when I fell asleep last night, because I called my mom and I had Ativan in my system. I had some severe anxiety around 2am, but it wasn’t bad enough that I threw up or had to call someone. I sort of just waited it out, and distracted myself for a couple hours, and I was asleep around 4pm. So I’m not sure if that’s progress, but it’s definitely not a degression!

I’m hoping I’ll start to notice some positive effects from the Lexapro within the next couple of weeks. I know it takes a while to work, but I should start to feel relief from the edge soon. Tonight I’m going to work on a class project with a friend, then I’m going to take the rest of the afternoon to relax, light a candle, and focus on keeping my panic down. Updates to come.


Wednesday, November 13

I’m in relatively good spirits, albeit my insomnia was awful last night and I didn’t sleep at all. That being said, my anxiety is pretty high so I’m running on pure adrenaline, and I’m not sleepy at all. So, that’s good I guess?

Last night was actually very lovely, and I even made some new friends! (And my existing friends took very good care of me). I decided to go to my university’s pride club, and I had a really lovely time partaking in the discussions and meeting new people. I’ll definitely be attending more meetings in the future!

Anywho, today is going to be a bit busier than usual. I have three classes today, then a study group, then a house meeting. After that, I’m hoping I can find some anxiety relief and get a few hours of sleep. I’m looking forward to this weekend, because I’m going home to spend some time with my mom and stepfather. They take such amazing care of me, especially in hard times such as now.


Saturday, November 16

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I admittedly forgot to write Thursday, and yesterday I was busy travelling home, but now I have (finally) found the time to sit down and get some work done! I’m happy to report that I’m in very good spirits, and since I’ve been home, I’ve hardly had any anxiety. I’m even starting to feel sleepy, which is something I haven’t felt in a long time due to ongoing adrenaline.

Today I visited Mount Agamenticus in Maine with my family, with was really lovely. I’m not really a big hiker, but the fresh air felt good and I had a great time. It’s much later in the evening now, and like I said, I’m starting to feel veeery sleepy, so I hope I can get a good night’s sleep. I’m glad I decided to come home for a short break; it’s been so rejuvenating and rewarding to spend time with the people I love. I hope you all had a fun weekend, too!

 

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Tuesday, October 29

Right now, I’m taking a break from working on my research paper to do something a little less intensive- blogging! I’m a self-proclaimed ambitious woman, and it’s my goal to have a ten-page literature review finished by the end of the night. I feel like I need to work harder than usual today to prove my productivity because I missed both of my classes today.

I actually HATE missing classes and feeling like I’m getting behind, but today was definitely a necessity. For whatever reason, though probably PMS/hormone related, I could not sleep a WINK last night. I quite literally just rolled around in bed, wide awake, and every time I checked my phone another hour had passed. I wasn’t even tired, and I’m still not feeling tired. I finally managed to sleep intermittedly on-and-off from 7am to 12:30pm, but that meant missing my 11am class and my 12:30pm class.

From my understanding, estrogen basically equates to energy in a woman’s body, and with PMS in full force I can imagine my hormones are literally off the walls right now. My skin is also breaking out worse than usual, and the acne is big and painful. I’m also feeling cramps and heightened anxiety, but those two things are generally normal.

So, yeah. I am currently in the midst of a bad month for PMDD, but I’m grateful that my mental health doesn’t seem to be much affected. Yes, having a bad sleep schedule for the past three nights is no fun, but I’d rather deal with this than feel completely dejected and sad. At least there’s coffee to treat a rough night’s sleep!

Anywho, I feel a bit better now that I’ve vented. I’m going to work on my literature review for a bit more, than take a break and binge watch Stranger Things in celebration of Halloween. I’m also going to order some dinner, because I feel like my tired ass is deserving of some comfort food, and then I’m going to try to will myself to go to the gym. Let’s hope the combination of working out, essential oils, and some light reading before bed is enough to get me asleep!


Thursday, October 31

Gosh, what a week it has been! So, I know I had high hopes that I would be able to sleep on Wednesday night, but it was unfortunately just another night of awful insomnia, profuse sweating, and a lot of tears. Pretty much every woman I have spoken to has confirmed it’s probably related to my cycle, so that does make me feel a bit better knowing it’s completely hormonal related and it will pass soon.

That being said, due to the lack of sleep due days in a row, I was an absolute mess on Wednesday. Dizzy, incoherent, crying every couple hours- I was definitely overtired and it was a mess. I decided the best thing to do would be to go home for a few days and have my mom take care of me, and see if being home could help me get some rest. Just the thought of having a repeat of the last two nights and worrying profusely about making it to class was sending me on a mental breakdown, so I decided it was time to stand back and really just focus on my health.

Well, good news! That ended up being exactly what I needed to get back on my feet. My mom brought me home, bless her, and we had lasagna and watched Coraline to celebrate the Halloween season. Then I had Motrin and an over-the-counter sleep aid, and boom…I was fast asleep for about twelve hours. I did wake up briefly around 4:30 because my menstrual cramps were atrocious, but all that took was an Ibuprofen and then I was out like a light again. 

Today I’m working extra hard to make up for all the classes I’m missing being home, but the workload is manageable (and I’m just so happy I was finally able to have a good night’s sleep). I definitely needed that mini break, and I’m so proud that I decided to take care of myself, because I genuinely do hate getting behind in school. I’ve already done a few critical assignments, and now I’m going to work on wrapping up the first draft of my senior research paper, which is due tomorrow by midnight. I’m also going to see Eli tomorrow, which is very exciting!

No, I don’t have any Halloween plans this year, but I’ll probably take a bubble bath, put on a scary movie, and hang out with my dog tonight. I’m not a big party person anyway, so I’m perfectly happy with that plan.


Friday, November 1

I’ve now slept fine two nights in a row, so I’m going to say my PMDD hell week is probably over, and my cycle should be back to normal now! I am SO happy I decided to give myself a break to come home and rest up. Ladies and gents, if you’re ever struggling, don’t be afraid to reach out and get some help. Self care is the most important thing you can do for yourself.

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I had a really awesome time with Eli this morning. We visited one of our favorite homestyle restaurants, which serves food similar to that of KFC. However, they do have a lot of vegetarian options (I’m just vegetarian now, no longer vegan), such as macaroni and cheese and mashed potatoes. The macaroni and cheese, by the way, is AMAZING. I don’t know how they do it, but it’s only available at this one particular restaurant near my hometown. Needless to say, I ordered a pint of it.

Afterwards, we visited some cows on the side of the road, and gave the bulls some good scratchies. Then we finished off the afternoon by visiting a farm that is also located in our hometown. I always laugh so much when I spend time with Eli, because he’s such a naturally funny person to be around. I might see him tomorrow night too, if he comes to visit me at school. If not, I’ll see him next on Thanksgiving recession. 


Coming up this week:

11/4- The Story Time Tag

11/6- MASSIVE List of Product Empties + My Favorite Makeup in 2019!

11/8- The Relationship Between Anxiety & Fatigue