Hi guys, I hope you’re all having a great Monday! It’s almost noon as I’m writing this, and I have a bit of time to kill until my next class, so I thought I’d get some blogging done. Today is going to be a bit busier than usual for me; I am interviewing Tiana Ferrell (a descendent of Ida B. Wells) for Analog at 2:30, then I have an Analog Meeting, and then I’m going over to my friend’s house to watch The Bachelor. I’m excited to be on top of things and getting projects done! Yesterday was a great day as well; I had dinner with my friends and met an ABSOLUTE ANGEL named Roxie. I mean, come on. Look at that little face!
Wednesday, January 29
I didn’t have time to jot down any thoughts yesterday; I can definitely tell that Tuesday is going to be one of my busiest days. For one thing, I have my internship from 10-4, for which I leave at 8am and get back to my school around 5. Then, because I have my Ethics homework due every Wednesday, I usually have to make a bee-line to the library to get that done. Then, pride club meets every other Wednesday, so I like to make a point of attending that from 7-8! It’s definitely been busy around here, as you can see, but I’m having a good time. I really enjoy having a lot of projects to work on, so this week has been all about juggling the blog, Analog, school work, and my internship. I’m going to be interviewing a small musician either today or tomorrow, so I’m really looking forward to getting that finished.
Thursday, January 30
Now that I’m starting to get more comfortable at my internship, I feel like I have a clear vision of my path here and I’m really excited to dive into my work. Surprisingly, I enjoy getting up early every day and I feel even more energized than usual. I’m definitely in a really great place physically, emotionally, socially, so that’s been a huge benefit towards the quality of my work. After I finish up work for the day, I’m going to grab some dinner and try to get some work done for my capstone. My goal is to have an article for Analog finished by Sunday, and then begin preparations for my next three articles and readings. Of course, I’m also pumping out content for the blog, which I tend to squeeze in at odd hours throughout the day. I’m feeling extremely busy, but also incredibly content and full of life. I have a feeling this is going to be a great semester; isn’t it amazing how much things have turned around for me since October?
Hi everyone! Today is my last night at home, and I’m enjoying it by watching The Bachelor with my mom and drinking some blueberry tea. We had a lovely evening together, which included dinner at IHOP and a bit of shopping at Goodwill. I didn’t need anything in particular at Goodwill, but of course, I walked away with a couple of tops and some photograph frames. I decided to use this green frame for my favorite picture of Eli and I, which I took back in 2016 by looking into a mirror. There’s something about it that makes me feel so happy and content. I also got this multi-photo frame, which I’ve filled with pictures of my family. I absolutely love physical pictures. I have tons of them at my house, dating back to when my great-grandmother was my age. The other day, I was looking at pictures of my mom when she was younger and became so inspired by her beauty. She looks like an elegant princess to me, almost like Princess Diana’s dainty beauty. So I’ve decided to grow out my eyebrows again, so that I can look a bit more like her when she was my age. She really rocked that bushy-brow look!
Tuesday, January 21
I’m back at school in what feels like the blink of an eye. My mom drove me back to school with all of my stuff, and after she left and I got settled in, I began to immediately feel unfamiliar and a bit down. I always feel a bit disoriented when I transition from one place to the next, until I am able to jump back into my routine. I’m sure I’ll start to feel back to normal by next week, when I’m deep into schoolwork and my internship! I also went back on my phone and read my first weekly newsletter, which turned out to be really useful and comforting. According to my first September entry, I was feeling the same exact sort of emptiness about transitioning back to school. So obviously it’s nothing new, and I’m sure I’ll feel better soon. I’m also a bit nervous about the sleeping situation, but I’m sure everything will be easier now that I’m back on Lexapro and my anxiety is at bay. Updates to come!
How do you guys deal with transitions? Do you also feel a bit lost and homesick for a bit?
Wednesday, January 22
It’s about 6pm now, so I would say my first day of college is officially over now! I have to say, I’m really excited for this semester. My professors all have a very similar energy: diplomatic, kind, and insightful. My classmates are also nice, and I’ve already exchanged a few numbers with new friends! So I would say today is definitely a success. All three of my classes today were 75 minutes each and back-to-back (starting with an 8am marketing class), so needless to say, I was exhausted by the time I left my last class. I honestly just ate a quick lunch, went back to my room, and played The Sims for a couple hours to un-fry my brain after classes, and then I somehow convinced myself to eat a salad for dinner. Now I’m at the library getting some *WordPress* work done, because I don’t really have any homework yet. Better enjoy that while it lasts!
Eyebrow update: they’re getting a bit longer by now!
Thursday, January 23
Hi everyone! The week is almost over, and for me, it absolutely flew by. Today is the first day of my internship, and it feels great to be off campus and out and about! I absolutely love my job so far. It’s very centric around social media updating and marketing, which is, of course, one of my favorite hobbies. I’m also going to be able to use WordPress and Google Analytics as part of my work responsibilities- yay! So far I’m having a great time organizing all of my work and deciding when and how to get started on my future projects. I also love the atmosphere of my workspace- it’s quiet and organized, and everybody is working on their own projects with their headphones in.
Friday, January 24
It’s only 12:30, but I’m already all finished with my classes! I have to say, I really like getting up earlier and having more hours in the day. And, of course, it’s nice to be done with all of my classes by 12:15. Yesterday after work I went to Target and picked up a couple of things I needed, and then I went back to campus for an eboard meeting, so I didn’t really have much time to write. I’m looking forward to this weekend so that I can catch up on projects (and a bit of sleep!). Also, I’m happy to report that my sleep has been really decent while I’ve been been back at school. I usually wake up at least once in the middle of the night, but I’m able to fall back asleep really quickly. So far, this has been an amazing week. I also just received my Lisa Eldridge lipstick in the mail, so I’m looking forward to writing a review for that.
I’m back on campus after a lovely weekend of being at home, and I feel so tired, I think I could pass out at any moment! I only have two classes today, and I’m hoping I can squeeze in a nap sometime after that.
This week, my focus is primarily going to be looking for an internship for the spring semester, and continuing to find a remedy for my insomnia. I will say that my anxiety hasn’t been too bad lately, so I’m happy about that! I think the escitalopram is finally starting to kick in.
Although my anxiety has been down and I’m really grateful for that, drowsiness and fatigue is definitely starting to take a toll on my academics. Now that I’m not running on pure adrenaline, I’m really feeling the effects of 0-3 hours of sleep per night. I’m still going to go to all my classes this week (at least, I’m planning on it), but I’m having a hard time feeling motivated to start my work. Right now, I’m so tired, I feel like I could fall asleep at my desk. I’m contemplating another coffee, but that might keep me up even more tonight. I guess we’ll see what happens!
Tuesday, November 19
Hey y’all, I hope you’re having a good week thus far. I managed to get a couple hours of sleep last night, so I’m happy about that. Tonight, my goal is to get three or four hours. Today, and last night, my nerves were especially rattled because I had impending apprehension about a speech/presentation I had to deliver today. I don’t like public speaking at all, but I managed to pull it together, and I’m actually really happy with how I did! Afterwards, I felt immediately at ease, and my nerves have been pretty stabilized since.
It’s about seven-thirty right now; I know that sounds early, but I’ve already showered and began my bedtime preparation. I’m going to finish up this blog, watch a feel-good movie, and then take Unisom and Ativan right before I’m ready to try to sleep. Lately, I’ve been finding that Keeping Up With the Kardashians relaxes me a lot before bed, due to both the placid nature of the show and the calming voices of the sisters. Tonight, I might try knitting and listening to a podcast, because there are a few new ones I’d like to listen to. Overall, I had a pretty productive day, and I’m proud of myself for pulling out a good presentation!
Wednesday, November 20
You guys, I have amazing news. I was able to get a whole EIGHT HOURS of sleep last night! I put on a podcast after I took my pills, put my head down on the pillow, and I was out within a few minutes. I woke up for a bit around three, but I was back asleep quickly and slept until around 8am. I’m super happy with that, so I’m going to try to replicate last night’s routine again tonight.
I’m also feeling very ambitious and upbeat today, probably as a result of sleeping so well. I got breakfast with one of my friends today, and we talked about writing and publications on our college campus. Somehow, it came up that I could start my own publication, and now I’m feeling really inspired by that notion. I’m already pretty well-versed on WordPress, so it would be easy to add another site. I’m a little nervous to add another site because I don’t remember the Diplomat’s Digest password off the top of my head, so hopefully I don’t get logged out for adding a site! Lol.
Friday, November 22
I’ve recently started taking melatonin tablets, so my nightly sleep has increased from about 2 hours to 4 hours. That’s better than nothing! Hopefully, it will just get better from here.
Right now, I’m sitting in Tatte Cafe with my good friend, Lily. She’s an amazing person, and has helped me find some amazing internships to apply for tonight. It feels good to be getting work done! I’m excited to find the perfect internship, because I genuinely love working and feeling like I matter in society. A lot of the internships I applied for are non-profit agency jobs, so I’ll definitely be able to help people in need. Updates to come on that.
I feel happy with the amount of work I’ve done today, and overall, it’s been a good week! I’m especially proud of my persuasive presentation I gave on Tuesday, because I was super nervous about that and I think I did an alright job. There were some negatives from this week: my Relovv story for my school’s magazine got dropped because of a “page count miscalculation”, I got friendzoned by a girl I was into, and my step dad’s dog might have cancer. Nonetheless, I think I’m ending the week on a good note, and I’m looking forward to a weekend of (hopeful) rest.
10am: I am #blessed with having mid-day classes, so it’s very rare that I have to wake up before 10 on a weekday. This is obviously awesome, because I love to sleep, but it also means I end up going to bed ridiculously late at night. Like, 2am-3am late. Anywho, I’m not a morning shower person, so the first thing I do when I wake up is wash my face, brush my teeth, and put in my contacts. Some days I put on makeup, but 75% of the time, it’s just a little concealer and eyebrow pencil for me. Today is no different.
11am: My first class today is at 11am, so I grabbed a coffee beforehand. I usually am not super hungry when I first wake up, so I’ll probably eat something small around noon. My first class today is Communication Research, which is very discussion heavy and requires a lot of focus. Nonetheless, I do make a bit of time to check my email, social media, and messages while class is taking place. I’ll also publish an article during the first half of the day, if one is scheduled to be released.
Noon: My first class actually got out early today, so my next stop is to get lunch. Ninety percent of the time, I’ll have a sandwich and a bag of chips. Today I used a meal swipe to get an uncrustable (my crack, tbh), some kettle corn chips, and a bottle of apple juice. Now, I’m planting myself down in an empty classroom to get some writing work done. I have to schedule an interview for a magazine spread, work on my Nevin’s Farm media press story, blog (duh), and then tie up some schoolwork. I actually don’t have anything that needs to be immediately worked on, academic-wise. My next homework assignments are due next Monday, so I’m certainly not in a rush to tackle any of that. In general, Sunday is usually my buckle-down-and-do-homework day.
2pm: My second class today, Writing for Public Relations, is 2:00-3:15. I’m currently working on two spot news stories- one is about Nevin’s Farm MSPCA, and the other is about Morale Support Animals on college campuses. This class usually goes by much faster for me than others, because I have my laptop right in front of me and I’m getting a ton of writing work done.
3:15pm: Before my last class, I stopped by the Starbucks on campus and grabbed a snack from the fridge. Our Starbucks very rarely has this vegan chicken sandwich, so I always grab it when I see it (to be totally honest, it’s actually not that great). My microeconomics class is from 3:30-4:45, and it requires a lot of hard work for me to comprehend, so this is the energy-protein boost I need right now.
5pm: Now that I’m out of class and dying to get back to my room to lay down (I spend a lot of time walking, and I’m in the middle of PMS cramps), I’m going to hit the dining hall one more time before I stay in for the night. Tonight I’m having broccoli, roasted squash, and a bowl of cereal. As I’ve mentioned before, the vegan/vegetarian options on my campus are NOT super prime most of the time. I won’t stay at the dining hall long, and while I eat my veggies, I enjoy scrolling through my news feed and seeing what’s happening in the world. I usually don’t eat with other people, unless I make specific plans to.
5:30pm: Like I said, I don’t have any homework that needs to get done immediately, so I can cross that off my mental list of tasks. Now that I’m back in my room, the first thing I do is take out my contact lenses and wipe off any makeup I may have been wearing that day. Like I said, I got a fat load of writing work done before my PR class, so now I’m going to take a mental break and play The Sims 4 for a couple hours. The Sims is the only video game I play, and to date, I’ve locked in thousands of hours. I’m also currently in the middle of an article about The Sims, and I’m really looking forward to revealing that to you all. After I play some video games, I’ll usually just law low for the rest of the evening. I did lie down for an hour or so because like I said, my uterus is being strangled by cramps as we speak.
8pm: Some evenings, if the weather isn’t awful, I like to pop in my headphones and take a short walk around campus. I think it’s really important to take some time away from my friends, my text messages, my internet, etc., and just go for a walk to clear my mind and think about things. Lately I’ve been jamming to Taylor Swift’s newest album (I LOVE “London Boy” and “The Man”, and I also love to listen to “Perfect” by Ed Sheeran and daydream about getting married while I walk. Dorky, I know). I’m not really a big exercise-oriented person anymore, because I just don’t have the resources for it, so I make up for that by taking a nightly walk around the neighborhood.
8:30pm: I’m a night showerer when I’m at school, so that’s my next objective. Sometimes I take super late showers (like, 11pm), but tonight I’m getting it done early so I can watch Rugrats in Paris with one of my friends. Yes, if you’re watching this in October of 2019, Rugrats in Paris is on Netflix!! Because my friend lives a few towns away, the way we watch things “together” is by pressing play in our respective homes at the same time. Then, we text about it while it’s happening, so it’s almost like we’re reacting at the same time. We’ve been doing this a lot of nights lately, but it’s usually with Cold Case Files, not animated movies.
That’s more or less my average day in a nutshell! Obviously it changes on a daily basis, but this is a pretty standard example of what my life is like. I’ll usually go to bed reaaally late, because my brain gets super active and full of ideas at night. It’s that flaming ADHD in me. Every night to fall asleep, I have to have some sort of audio playing in the background. Otherwise, my brain will be racing at 100 miles an hour and I’ll start thinking about stupid things I did five, ten years ago. Having something (or someone) to listen to distracts my mind from wandering into anxiety, and ultimately helps me focus on getting sleepy. Tonight I fell asleep listening to VSauce videos, and I was out within fifteen minutes. Goodnight, everyone! I’ll see you next week.