Sunday, August 9

Hi everyone! Hope you had a really great week and you’re looking forward to the days to come. My week has been much better than the one before, and I really feel like I am slowly healing from the pain and stress I was going through. I didn’t have anywhere to be this weekend, so I took advantage of that and caught up on a lot of sleep and “me time.” I remember this past Thursday night I essentially slept from 6pm to 7am, and that was a huge wake-up call for me that last week took a huge toll on me. I was exhausted, so hopefully that will provide some insight into why I was falling behind on everything else.

Today my main goal was to get my new phone set up, which my mom very generously sent to me in the mail (thanks, mom!), and I’m currently in the process of backing up my data onto the iCloud. It’s apparently going to take 4-5 hours, according to my phone, but at least it’s happening! I’m also passing the time by watching Leah Remini: Scientology and The Aftermath, which is my current favorite show to binge-watch. I’ve also been really enjoying The Last Dance, which is a documentary series about Michael Jordan and several other basketball stars who played for the Bulls. No, I would have never picked this documentary to watch on my own, but Nathaniel put it on when I went to visit him, and I just got suckered into it. I honestly feel like I could get invested in any subject if the documentary was interesting enough- does anyone else feel that way?

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As for other ways I’m trying to heal from my depressive episode, I’ve been trying to do a lot more journaling and raw, unfiltered writing in my notebooks to feel more in-touch with myself and my feelings. It’s been so, so helpful, and it’s really helped me to appreciate myself more and understand how my past traumas have intertwined with my current stresses. If you’re also going through similar stress and anxiety, I would highly recommend finding a list of depression-specific prompts and answering one per day. I also made a bubble/flow chart of everything that’s on my mind lately, and discovered through making arrows that several of them were interconnected. That has been really helpful for me to break my stress into smaller pieces and tackle the smaller issues first, working my way into the bigger issues.

So basically, the sparknotes of what I’m trying to say is that I’m really proud of how I’m doing and the healthy coping mechanisms I am taking to better myself. Nathaniel has also been absolutely wonderful throughout this time, remaining patient and loving even in the moments that I’m hard on myself. 

I am working tomorrow through Thursday, per usual, and then my good friend MJ is coming to visit me from New York. Don’t worry, we are fully intending on keeping ourselves safe and socially distancing. I’m really excited to see them, because the last time I saw them was last August on the day we met. So this weekend is going to be our one-year friendversary, and I’m so overjoyed to be reunited with such an important friend in my life.

Anway, I’m going to try pre-scheduling all my content for this week so that I don’t have to worry about it while I’m working. I do like blogging and writing online, but sometimes, I just don’t have the energy to get it done! So here’s to hoping this week goes smoothly and painlessly, so that I can find that little bit of “me time” to get it done. 

Sunday, May 10

Hi everyone, I hope you’re all doing well. I’ve had a surprisingly productive/busy day for a Sunday; I went grocery shopping, helped my roommate deep-clean the apartment, meal prepped for the week, applied to three jobs, started a story for Analog, and now I’m blogging! I also touched up my roots with some bleach, but that didn’t turn out as 100% as I wanted. Nonetheless, I think I did a pretty good job.

I feel pretty well adjusted to the groove of my apartment life, but I’m still not 100% settled. For one thing, I’ve had a little bit of a writing block when it comes to blogging. Projects with my hands are fine, like painting and book binding, but I honestly haven’t felt settled enough to really sit down and type since I moved in. I know this sounds dramatic, but I’ve only just been so focused on survival that I haven’t really thought about my blog or Analog. That’s why tonight I’m trying to really buckle down and get an article or two done, so I don’t fall behind.

I think after I write this, I’m going to make some grilled cheese and soup for dinner, and watch some more Love Island. I think I’m going to see Buck this weekend, so that’s exciting! I miss him tremendously. 


Saturday, May 16

Hi guys! Hope you’re all staying safe and happy. I know I haven’t sat down to write in a few days; I’ve been preoccupied by visiting my boyfriend in his hometown. I hadn’t seen him since before I moved, so it was really nice to catch up again and spend some quality time together. We’ve been spending a lot of time at home, of course, but we’ve also been out on a few drives, and we even went for a lovely nature walk around the mountains the other day. I also learned he makes an amazing grilled cheese sandwich, so I’ve been requesting that a lot for dinner lately, haha! The other way we’ve been occupying our time is through watching tons of movies and ordering takeout. I love my new apartment, but it’s always nice to come out here and spend time with his family, too. In fact, it’s pretty likely I’m going to break my lease within the next 6-8 months and move out here to be with him. We already know we want to get married, move to Vermont, and have little babies someday, so we’re definitely ready to take that next step and move in together.

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Speaking of that, I’m not planning on getting married anytime soon (not for at least 2-3 years,) but I did find my absolute dream wedding dress on Etsy and I am dying to order it now, since it’s a vintage item and once it sells, it’s gone. It’s a gorgeous seventies off-the-shoulder lace dress with a deep back, and I’m absolutely nuts for it. It’s only $275, so if I scrape together some savings, I think I can buy it before it sells. I’m also probably going to receive some graduation money (today would have been my graduation if it wasn’t for coronavirus,) so I can put that towards the dress as well.

Anyway, I’m going back to Boston tomorrow (sadly,) and from there I need to do some meal prepping, open a new bank account, and continue my never-ending job search. I’m going to celebrate so hard the day I get a job, even if it’s just doing retail work or bussing in a restaurant. I’ll be sure to update you guys on how that process goes. Enjoy these pictures from my beautiful week in Western Massachusetts! 

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Literally the happiest day of my life

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Tuesday, February 18

Good morning, everybody! I hope your week is off to a good start. The weather has been a bit nicer than usual lately, so I’m really appreciating that, especially since I do so much commuting throughout the week.

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I’m not going to lie, I feel (physically) like shit this morning. I’ve been able to sleep pretty well for the last couple of months, thank goodness, but last night I woke up around 3am and it really threw me off. I did fall back asleep after a little bit, but I’m still paranoid that my insomnia will come back. Nonetheless, I’m trying not to think about that so I don’t go down a total anxiety rabbit hole.

Besides that, I’m doing pretty well! My life has been very confusing and turbulent lately, but also extremely nice. I was thinking this morning on the train that I feel like I have the sun in me, because I’m so happy and bright lately. Although it’s been crazy, I feel like I’m really starting to come around to a sense of clarity, and that feels amazing. Maybe in the future I’ll be able to offer up more details, depending on how things pan out.

Anyway, I have my internship today, so hopefully I can stay energized despite my rough night of sleep. My PMDD is still lingering on a bit, but I should be feeling much better tomorrow now that I’m on my placebo pills. 


Thursday, February 20

Hi everyone, I hope you’re all having a great end to your week. I’m feeling really good today, and I’m finally not exhausted every morning now that my PMDD is subduing. I’ve had a pretty eventful week, I have to say, filled with a lot of ups and downs (but primarily ups.) I’m looking forward to tomorrow, as I’m going to be attending a MIRA volunteer event for a school project, and then, a very dear person and I are going to the MFA afterwards. I’ve been really big into art appreciation lately, as I’m sure you can tell. 

So, that’s all very good. I wish I could say more about the wonderful things happening in my life, but admittedly I’m scared to jinx it! So I’ll wait a little bit, and see how things are still going, and then maybe I’ll spill the tea to all of you.


Saturday, February 22

The weekend is here, and I’m enjoying sleeping in and drinking coffee today! I haven’t had much time to write lately, because the last couple of days have been quite busy. Like I said before, I went to the Museum of Fine Arts yesterday with a very special friend of mine. I happened to be in Boston anyway for a MIRA training (required for a class project), so it made sense that yesterday would be the day to go traveling. It was a really fantastic day, filled with calm energy and happiness and pure gratitude. I love looking at art, and it’s even better when you get to enjoy it with other people. We also had a lovely stroll around the city and got some food, so altogether, it was a really special day. Afterwards, I hung out with my friends for most of the night and saw a really interesting play called Vagina Monologues, which is all about girl love and embracing the female body. It was really inspirational; I’d be lying if I said I didn’t tear up a bit.

Anyway, I really need to get cranking on my ethics paper, so I’ll leave y’all with some pictures of my day. If you ever have the chance to visit the Museum of Fine Arts, I highly recommend it!

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I’m honestly not sure if I can call myself a professional blogger or not, but I have been doing it regularly for a while now and I think I have a good handle on it. When I first started my blog, I knew absolutely nothing about blogging, formatting, or even WordPress at all. I just knew I wanted to do something beautiful with my writing, and here we are almost two years later! So today, I want to share with you everything I’ve learned over the course of writing my blog. I’m also going to include a list of blog ideas, in case you need a bit of help getting started with content. I hope you enjoy!

Probably the most important thing on this list is to have a strong, cohesive theme in mind before you start your blog. Having a clear idea of your target audience, your aesthetic, and what kind of content you want to create is extremely important, and it makes blogging so much easier in the long run. Before I started my blog, I sat down and made a list of all the different elements, color schemes, and content I wanted my blog to be centered around. I would say my blog has always been very soft, pastel, and traditionally “feminine” in regards to the type of aesthetics I lean towards. Analog, on the other hand, is extremely neutral in regards to the fonts, colors, and layouts I use. Whatever you choose to incorporate, make sure it’s cohesive, clean, and of course, easy to read!

Tags and categories are another important element of making your blog successful. I use several categories on my own personal blog so that I can keep my content refined and organized, and tags are optimal for increasing traffic to your site. For example, if I’m going to write an article about Jeffree Star’s makeup, I will categorize the article as “Health & Beauty” and use tags such as “Jeffree Star Cosmetics, Morphe, Makeup, Beauty, Eyeshadow,” etc. That way, when people go online to search for those keywords, my articles will appear higher up in the search queue. Since incorporating tags into my articles, I have definitely seen an increase in overall traffic to my site. It’s one of the most essential forms of social media marketing. 

The next tip I have for starting your own blog is to create a monthly posting calendar. I have articles planned out and color-coordinated all the way through March, and it’s the best way for me to stay motivated and on top of things. Additionally, looking ahead at future articles will give me enough time to gather supplies needed for that content, or complete adequate research about the subject I am covering. Particularly when I cover real-life events, I like to spend a few days or weeks researching the topic to make sure I am fully educated and informed on the issue. Having a posting calendar is also a great way to make sure your content is well-rounded; for example, if I notice I have a lot of beauty articles planned for the month of February and not a lot of cooking content, I can plan ahead to cut back on beauty and amp up other subjects for the following months.

Lastly, I want to let you guys know that it can take time to see any substantial growth to your blog, so be patient for the first couple of months or even years. I worked hard to build myself up as a writer, and it’s still an ongoing process that I am working on today. Don’t give up, even if you’re feeling discouraged or impatient! 

Finally, if you need some starter ideas for potential articles, here is a list of lifestyle blog ideas I’ve used myself in the past:


-What you’re reading right now

-The best spots to eat in your city/state

-Product reviews: skincare, makeup, shoes, etc.

-Reviewing a subscription box (makes for a great quarterly article)

-Family traditions

-Craft ideas for different holidays (Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas)

-Gift guide

-Your morning/night routine

-Outfit ideas/lookbooks

-Moodboards for the seasons (another great quarterly idea)

-Your makeup collection

-50 things that make you happy

-Ways you save money

-Tag articles! (Fall tag, blogger tag, etc)

-Product empties

-Story times

-Day in the life

-Movie/tv show review

-An analysis of your favorite record or music album

-Your favorite cookbooks

-Your style icons

-Review conspiracy theories

-Cooking tutorial

-What are you angry about?

-Self care tips and ideas

-A tour of your house/bedroom

-Favorite summer swimsuits

-Unpopular opinions

-Favorite drugstore products

-Your Spotify rewind

-The books you’ll never outgrow

-Taking the MBTI personality test

-Advice for college

-Interview a grandparent about their life


I hope you find this article helpful in all of your blogging adventures! Have fun and do what makes you the happiest, above everything else.

As a die-hard night owl, it can really difficult for me to feel motivated and driven in the morning. One of the ways I like to wake myself up (and wind myself down at the end of the day) is by writing. Handwriting in a journal is so different than typing on a computer for me. For one thing, handwriting takes more thought and effort, and it simply just feels more private than putting something in a word document on the Internet. I love utilizing my computer to write about pressing non-fiction topics and blog posts, but when it comes to my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, I definitely prefer journaling. Do any of you feel the same way?

I have a couple different types of paper journals I like to write in. The first is a dream journal, which I believe I have mentioned before in my college morning routine. It’s not a place for me to write goals or ambitions- it’s a place where I record the actual dreams I had the night before. Interestingly, I feel like writing down my dreams has actually made me dream more often. I’m not sure if there’s a scientific reason for this or not, but it would make sense to me that focusing on your dreams can make you more self-aware of them. Having a dream journal gives me something to look forward to in the morning, and exercising my mind first thing really helps me to wake up and feel productive from the get-go.

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I also have a more generalized journal, where I just record page-long entries about my emotions, experiences, or really just whatever is going on in my life at the time. I used to pressure myself to write an entry every day, but I realized pretty quickly that it’s not possible for me to have something interesting to say every day. It can also make journaling feel like a chore, which is the opposite of the point! Journaling should make you feel relaxed, happy, and willing to be open with yourself. 

Oddly, I’m not interested in re-reading my journal entries. In fact, I don’t think I ever have; I think deeply, I write my feelings, and then I literally close that chapter forever. It’s also partly because I’m embarrassed to re-read things I’ve thought and said in the past, because I am constantly driven to be a better version of myself and re-write the way I was before. Maybe someday when I’m much older I’ll decide to look back and read them, but today, it just doesn’t feel like the right time. 

Even if you don’t feel like there’s anything exciting going on in your life, it can still be beneficial to record your thoughts. You might discover something about yourself that you didn’t know was there before, or uncover an emotional issue you were bottling up without realizing it. Maybe you don’t even think of yourself as a writer, but that doesn’t mean you don’t have a story that deserves to be told.

Coming up next: Spirit Quartz: Ethereal Feminine Energy